NEW YEAR Greetings!!!

There's a lot of things to write, I would like to write some New Year greetings to all of my Fam, Friends , Loved ones, let get started :

First of all for JC :

Thanks for wonderful year, tough one, but i manage to survive, with ur help of course. I can't imagine live without you, sorry for being a bit unfaithful, and thanks again to always have a faith in me, u're my best friend, God, Father, Teacher EVER!!! no one compare to u. I really hope that next year we will have more relationship, gettin closer to you and gain more wisdom en knowledge from you. Happy New year!!!

To My Family:

Thanks to my Mom, for being the best mom ever, support me in all of the situation I got, sorry for let u down sometimes but still u have faith in me. I would like to have more intimate relationship with u, en hope 2010 will bring better things for this house.

Thanks to my dad, even we rarely communication, but i believe every words is worth it, i'm looking forward for a better year en better relationship with u, thanks for everything, i wish u a awesome year.

Thanks to my sister, thanks for being an awesome sister for me through out 2009, there'sups en down but u still be there for me, I miss U A LOT!!! I wish u a wonderful and fruitful year in 2010, en everything will gettin even better en better!!

Thanks for my brother, i really looking forward for 2010,i would like to have a better relationship with u, not just being a good brother 4 u, but also a friend that u can talk en share to, i wishing u a brighter year!! learn from mistake en don't fall on the same spot again!! Love u all!!!!

Thanks to my grandpa en grandma, i'm wishing u a great year ahead, God gave good health en much pleasure live ahead!! Love u too!!!

This for my cousin Willy : Happy new year too bro... thanks also being a great family en friend to me, i'm also inspired by ur determination ,passion of Christ, through every word ur said or type on ur blog, it's such a blessing 4 me en i believe all of ur friends there. Keep rise up to the next level bro!!! Can't wait for may 2010 ^^ Have a blast day!!!!

For My Uncle : I have no real words to describe this, I would like to thanks for everything that u did in this family, it's such a blessing to have an uncle like you, we might not have been close enough, but i'm looking forward to get to know each other.I'm personally would like to have a big bro, en I guess u're the closest one ^^ .Personally i would like to thanks a ton for the assistance u gave to me, it's really priceless, the lesson that u gave, it's just overwhelmed. Wishing u a great year ahead, I believe God will bless u even more, Happy New Year!!!

All My Auntie, Uncle, Cousin,Nephew, Niece ETC: Have a wonderful year Ahead!! Kept expecting things to come, that God will never leave nor forsake u!!! He have a great plan for all of you, u're destined for GREAT!!

For My Friends:

Agnes Dyke : Thanks for being a good friend of mine, u done great, help me a lot. we might not talk much, but I believe our friendship will last forever.Looking forward to see ur baby, i'm gonna be a proud uncle!! Heheheehehe.... Have a blast year!!

Yusly Leonando : Thanks Bro for everything, support me in a good en bad situation, advise me with ur words, it's such a blessing to have you, Looking forward to have a better one in 2010. Happy New Year!!! Hope u got everything u want en desire, keep love God, that's the key!!

Danny Tan : Thanks bro, for ur help.Without u, I cant really tell where I am now. Thanks for the patience for me. Hope a blast year, gettin married en success in everything u plan!! Happy New Year bro!!

Hana A Sutedja : I hope I write ur name correctly.. ^^ Thanks to being such a good listener foe all my whining through out the year, thanks to support all my decision, en being faithful for me... i can even recall anyone better that u, it's really priceless have friends like you, and also thanks to share ur life with me wishing u a blast en awesome year ahead!!!!u ROCKS!!! Happy New Year!!!

Sasa: Thanks Girls for everything, for ur ears, heart en mind. That u spare it with me. I will not walked this far if it's not because of you, also thanks to share ur life with me. Thanks for accompanying me to hospital, it's really blessing to have a friend like u.I really wish u all a happy new year!! Have a blast year!!

San2 : Thanks for being my faithfully friends in Google Talk, it really help me a lot to killing time, it's a honor to know u, have u as my friend. Thanks for everything u done in my life in 2009, looking for a better one in 2010.. Happy new Year!!

Yanita : Thanks also for ur faithfully BUZZing me, it's great to know I have such a great friends, thanks to trust me , thanks for all of ur support through this difficult time, it was priceless... Happy New Year Sis.... Have a good look on the sunrise en shaking cars.. LOL

Randy : Thanks bro for ur help, I know there's some of tension for couple of months, but i really wish that we can start fresh, en put everything behind. Happy new Year!! Have a beautiful year ahead!!

Johan Logito : Happy New year bro, good to have a good friends like you, thanks for everything... Looking forward to see u (when I can see u, since u really busy rite now) ^^

Hmmmm.. I'm kinda out of words, but trying to keep it up ^^

Billy Sundjaya : Bill, Thanks ya buat semuanya, thanks for being a good friends dari dulu mpe sekarang. Mau ditumpangin tidur setiap kali g ke Bandung, I wish u never bore with it, thanks for sharing ur life with me ^^ Happy New Year!! Hope 2010 every wishes will come true.....

To All My LH Teacher: u guys ROCKS, it really been a privileged to get to know an awesome man en woman of God, that share the same PASSION!! It's PRICELESS!! I wouldn't trade anything for that. Thanks For Merry, being such a good leader, u can achieve even MORE!!! Thanks to Rony, Haryono, David en Joshua for being a MAN there, with me.. Hahahaha u guys irreplaceable!! For Liana, constantly nice to me en love eat BK a lot, really girl, nothing can compare with u!! LOL For Yenny that share a wonderful Christmas spirit, looking forward to cruise another awesome year with this TEAM!!! Thanks for all of you, for being nice en good 4 me... Happy New Year to Mieke,Ratna,Ryna,Dessy,Nana,Catherine,Lily,Meri Lim... Many Thanks..!!!!!

To my ex-colleague:

Catrina Kho : Thanks for being such a good (x)boss for me, good sister, provide me with the one of the most delicious food, no one can compare that, thanks, a big en huge thanks for an impact that u made in my life. Looking forward to have a better journey ahead. Happy New Year ci, have a blast year for whole family!!!

Lio Rita : Yeah2 Yeah Yeah.. I should have hear u.. Hahahhaha.. Thanks for being there for me, for how much u have been busy, still manage time to reply my G-Talk, even i need to wait for DAYS for the reply.. LOL... Thanks for being a good example foe me a good BIG sister... ^^ Have a nice en blast New Year!!!

Debby Susanto : Thanks little sis, for support me in every decision that I take, even hear all of my complain through out the year, in new or in old company, Thanks, many thanks for that, I can't tell you how much worthy u are. Happy New Year!!

Laidy Budiman : Happy New Year Bro, thanks for using MY happy puppy card, u make me famous there,(just by name) LOL Thanks for all year being a good friends, from all the happiness en also all the sadness ^^

I forgot one, Joni Lay : Thanks a lot bro for everything, the support, the help, being faithful for me, the wisdom, the... what else?? I'm speechless.. thanks for being my best buddy through out this year, it's been a tough year for me, en I always can count on you, i can't give u anything, but i can only pray 4 u ^^ all the best bro in 2010, all the best!!! Camera, Xbox, PS3 , BABY!!!! Yeah i'm going to be a lot of uncle for everyone, that excite me!!! Happy New Year!!!

Voice from Microsoft Words.... ^^

28^th December 2009 - 11:05AM (@ the office without Internet)

Right now, I’m writing from Ms Word, since 24^th December, I got no internet connection anymore, so I miss a lot of things here (Read: Connection to the REAL WORLD.. Hahahaaha) It’s a long story, that I won’t share it here, it’s too personal and I think it’s not rite to write it here ^^ , the reason I make this blog is to share good things, to encourage people who read this to have a better life, and also my tribute to the loved ones (God, Families, Friends en Others) So I’m trying to be as positive as it look, even in my deepest or lowest moment in my life. ^^

So, usually I catch up with friends through YM, Twitter, FB, etc. Since today, I can do that, I just count on my cell phone to communicate with them or using Company’s E-mail. And FYI Internet is the only reason that I survived it here, so now, I need to think something else. ^^

I just want to look back my life, especially for the past 2 months. I felt that is the moment of the most negatives ‘Erick’ in 2009. I’m so frustrated with life here, everything seem so wrong, en what I’m doing is never enough. I’m complaining a LOT, whine a LOT and everything. Thanks to my friends that always be there for me, u guys Rocks!! At some point, especially when I spent my long holiday, yesterday, I made up my decision. I need to get out fro here soon. I’m not being fruitful here, not a bit. Most of the people will just (easily) said that Hang in there a bit more… The reason why I move up here, cause I see a potential raise, improvement, so when the fact the reality, en all of the element of ur body, mind, spirit went wrong, I think it’s the time u say enough, u need to take u-turn asap, don’t waste any more second going into wrong direction. I’ve heard that God have a quite way to teach you, en really I can’t explain how I felt right now.

The points are : -every open doors, is not always ur doors ; when u make a wrong turn, don’t wait too long till u lost, take u-turn asap ; Never ever felt ashamed if u have to took back ur word (for a really good reason, sometimes this just become a barrier for someone to move forward)-

28^th December 2009 - 11:45AM (still @office without Internet)

I really got nothing to do right now, all the work is completely done, it’s a holiday season, so everything is looks really slow, not as hectic as usually, and most of the boss is taking day off.

I just would like to summarize my “own made” holiday.

On Wednesday, 23^rd December 2009:

I went to Siloam Hospital, checking on my condition, it’s been 2 months I always have a problem with my lungs, I have a difficulty to take a breath, and cough hard a lot. My friends told me that I’ve been a lot of stress, en she sounds rite, the doctor said there nothing critical there, in the first examination he just gave me some medicine to take, and will return to him for about a week, to do further test. Thanks to Sasa, that she willingly accompanied me that day. Nothing special for the rest of the day.

On Thursday, 24^th December 2009:

Have quiet morning, have a little distraction there, since my bro’s friend ask him to take care of her dog, while she’s on vacation, so I got a morning call every day. On the afternoon, I went to my best buddy house, we play some video game, and unfortunately I lost on some of that game, it a little embarrassment for me, since he never defeated me all time, and after that he kept on teasing me about the game. I’m really a competitive person, that really hard for me to take a defeat LOL. We have a dinner in Yuraku, Kelapa Gading. We’ve planned this before, so we got a reservation earlier, the place is so packed, when I got in for the first time, I’m loosing my appetite, caused it was a mess. Since I’m very hungry myself, it came back, en we have a blast dinner, eat to the full!!! ^^ For your information, right before we got to Yuraku, we have a detour on Ketoprak (the best that I can tell) we ordered 2 portion for 3 people. I really look forward to get it again. It’s a great Christmas Eve, spent time with good friends.

On Christmas Day 2009:

My Mom leaving us to Jambi, since there’s a friend of her that pass away so she want to go there. Actually I want to have a family dinner on that day, but… we never know what will happen tomorrow. My day started with Hoka2 Bento for lunch. My friend asks me to watch movie with Him en his GF, so I went to SMS. I’m watching an almost 3 hours of the greatest movie in 2009, yeah u know AVATAR. It really a great movie, I even don’t want to leave the studio, or end the movie, it’s really speechless. The creator, director of it was really BRILLIANT!!! GENIUS!!! And have a moral story in it, really deep. I can relate it with our earth condition right now. We tend to ignore our mother earth, that showing sign of real bad destruction, for our own greed, we never preserve them, to selfish; we even don’t realize that our life is supported by it. Hopefully we can learn that lesson as soon as possible. At nite, I’m having dinner with my ex-colleague from APP, we ate Duck King.

On 26^th December 2009:

Decide it to have some quality time with my friend, we haven’t had this kind of conversation in long time. Good to catch up each other. @TA dinner at Pasta de Waraku, good restaurant with a lot of variety, but a bit of pricy.

On 27^th December 2009:

Playing FM 2010 all day, till have to pick up mom from airport, having a good dinner ‘Martabak India’ I have no idea what it called in English. ^^

Rite Now, 28^th December 2009:

Back to reality, read book, hear some music, work a bit and so sleepy. ^^

No point at all, just killing time with this writing. And also thinking about 2010…

Christmas -

It's 3 days before Christmas, I already celebrate Christmas in my church. The service is always great, they never stop to surprises you. The drama presentation is beyond awesome, the message delivered through it, very powerful, and many more. We also already celebrate the Christmas for the kids, it was amazing, the kids are so cute, the decoration is great, we worked it all out only within hours (the day before). I can't wait to see the photo taken on that day (by me) There's a bunch of pretty face, exciting faces and just priceless.

Just about yesterday, I just find out what would be my first resolution for 2010. I started this year with this blog, en I determine to continue with it, it was fun, even I still need a lot of improvement, A LOT.... hehehehe.... Back to the resolution, the first list, en the most important thing to do next year is praying.. yes PRAYING... It's really funny, that I become a christian almost the rest of my life, but never (really, really) realize that Praying is the most powerful weapon God gave to us. Not that I never prayed, but just sometimes. "If u pray little its probably because u believe prayer doesn't accomplish very much.." this is the phrase that stabbed my heart... ^^ so deep... It's like Holy Spirit talked to me " Erick, Pray More!!" That's why I'm going to make it the most next year, it's a real Christmas gift that God gave to me ^^

In my next post I would like to summarize what happened in 2009, all the pro and con's.

Keep praying, u never know what can you do with praying... Move God's Hearts ^^

Have a good day!!

Love vs Forgiveness

It's already December, always love the Months, it's Jesus Christ birthday, could never think the best present for Him, except my own Heart only toward Him. I guess that the best give that we ever possible gave to Him. It seems simple but yet very complicated and challenging.

I don't know how related this is, but i'll try hard to make it related. He2x. Yesterday I got an email, a very shocking email, I never knew that thing until he tell me that. I've learn that for some people or most of them, when they got a traumatized in the past, it will just carried away up till now. That's why I titled this Love en forgiveness.

The letter/e-mail that receive is inform me that I have caused him that really traumatized event, that I even can't recall that. I already apologize to him, because I love him so much, and really I'm glad that he told me that. The happier is He can accept my apology, and move on, I never said it easy but, hey... you can do it, it's all because of grace en mercy that God gives to us.

I have heard many story bout this kind of stuff, bitterness and traumatized from the past. And I can say that, in order to get free from it, you need to forgive people that did it to you, beside forgive you also need to open your heart, to have a courage to tell someone, share it (of course with the person that u trusted most, or you know that they can really help you) I can't see other way from that two can lead to a total reconciliation, not only between u en ur God, but also it'll improve your life (for sure).

One other thing that I want to share to you, it's about the choice. I might related to the bitterness things. This is just my opinion. You, never ever can blame anything that happen in ur life, not ur God, the circumstances , the people that hurt you etc. NEVER!! It's not easy to accept those situation, NOT EASY, but we need to be more wise, to see things in different perspective. Everything happen for a reason, the reason that if we can't open our heart en mind, trying to accept it, it will be never reveal (the reason why it happen). In every situation, actually you have a choice, have en option to chose, to do it or not, accept it or not. You must also realize that every action will come into consequences. There are instant one en also there's need time to see the result of it. So it's really about our choice, u can't put the blame to other (even it might be effect you directly) In other words, you have a choice to put all the things in the back en fixed things en see toward future. Don't get your past stop God blessing upon you, God had a master plan to you, ur potential put on hold cause u can't see tomorrow.

I have find an interesting, when God (in my opinion) change the 10 commandments into a simple phrase "Love ur God en Others with all you got" It mean that He want us to love each other, support each other.. That the greatest give that God have for us, and in return He just want us to share Love, to God also to other. Love can't be buy yet it's free. You have that love inside urself, u just need to distribute it.

Spread some love, en love will grant you the ability to forgive, en when u forgive you have no idea what God prepared for you... It's just AWESOME, beyond AWESOMENESS...

Have a good day ^^

Dejavu..

24th November 2009..

I was planning to go with LH teacher on Saturday, because of I turned down the alarm that suppose to woke me up, I missed it, and regret it very much *sigh* so lookin forward for the next field trip with you guys....

Actually that Saturday was (supposed to) my getaway from the hectic weeks (want to say months) away from Jakarta, and related to people, real people ^^ But what can I say, it's because of my own faults though......

That week is quiet a week for me, I took leave on Monday, and on Tuesday I have a supplier visit, so basically I only got 3 days in the office (I loved it very much). Plus this week Monday visit supplier, and Friday we got Holiday!!! how cool it is, two weeks in row only 3 days office hour (wish I can get this every week)

On Monday (for the first time) I wake up on 6, because we have visit to Serang, I got pick by my colleague near home, so I'm really happy for that (not wake up from 4am) They got me on 9 ++ i really enjoy every second of it... LOL



So we reach Serang around 10.30am, we're having a discussion, plant visit and doing a fun stuff there (for me away from Karawang is the best thing ever) While sitting in the room, I realize something, the office that we visit, was my ex-employer. I'm not going to lie to you that I really miss my old office, specially the warmth, dynamic, intelligent and cool people that used to be my colleague. At that time it almost make me want to cry (so sensitive.. ^^ ) because of all of the memories that we're having back days, it's PRICELESS. I wish to (honestly) turn back time en reconsider again all the decision that I took.

We're planning to see each other this Thursday, I'm looking forward to it, real badly!!!


The point is: I don't want to look back, It's useless, so I've something in the future, real close and I'm looking to it, I hope that I can share it soon. It's just awesome!!!!

- Don't Ask -

Still in huge influence from lamentation, I found a phrase that said "don't ask" very interesting. In every problem that we're facing we often (seems like) rushing God to solve the problem right away, we always nag Him for an answer. Nag is different from having faith and pray on it, I'm not saying that we can't ask Him, or pray for it.But do not Nag!! God is God, He know us en He will help you with His way.. ^^

In the problem that I'm facing, I often nag God, complain this, complain that. And just out of no where, that word keep popping on my mind "don't ask". I've started the don't ask treatment for a week, just having a simple prayer, askin God for the help, but not with the nag thing (when, how,when, and more when... ^^)

Out of the silence not nagging God, I have some good news (not really, but I'm excited already) Hopefully it will be answer within this week. So this is my second week of treatment and I'm expecting more from God.

He just simply want to say to us, "I know what you've been through, I'm working with something, just be patience bout it, I will help you, that my promises won't fail, I can guarantee that ^^"

Have a nice day... ^^

Weekend.....

End of October....

I just can't believe that it's already November again, en when I look up to my resolution, *sigh* you know what i meant... Hahahahahaaha...

I always believe, and saying to myself times to times that this year I will receive something big, that will eventually change my life, with 2 months left, i keep manage my expectation high (even deep down, really deep down.. there's pessimism, but i tend to buried it really deep.

It have been an unpleasant 2nd semester in my life, seriously in my Life!! It's really tough a lot of things happen and reach it peak. But thank you I have such a great family, friends and God. I really hang on Lamentation 3 from Message bible.

Today i manage to write something because of my boss is not around and I'm finish my job already, and counting down to 5 now. On Sunday will have some meeting, (not really a meeting) hang out with my friends, that always be there for me, that kept me alive Hahahahhaha... We're planning to have a lunch in Plaza Indonesia, and I'm really craving for Burgers!! I have to eat one this weekend!! It's going to be fun, and I'm looking forward to it.

And I really got a change to relate with all the JPCC Kids teacher on 21st November. We're having an out bound in Jakarta, it's all day event en surely it's going to be awesome!!! Will get back to write more....

God bless and keep head up...

Lamentation

This post just simply to remind me this moment I've been through....

One of my friend share this passage, en I find it "AWESOME"

Lamentation 3 (Message Version)

It's a Good Thing to Hope for Help from God

19-21

I'll never forget the trouble, the utter lostness, the taste of ashes, the poison I've swallowed.I remember it all—oh, how well I remember— the feeling of hitting the bottom.But there's one other thing I remember, and remembering, I keep a grip on hope:

22-24

God's loyal love couldn't have run out, his merciful love couldn't have dried up.They're created new every morning. How great your faithfulness!I'm sticking with God (I say it over and over). He's all I've got left.

25-27

God proves to be good to the man who passionately waits, to the woman who diligently seeks.It's a good thing to quietly hope, quietly hope for help from God.It's a good thing when you're young to stick it out through the hard times.

28-30

When life is heavy and hard to take, go off by yourself. Enter the silence.Bow in prayer. Don't ask questions: Wait for hope to appear.Don't run from trouble. Take it full-face. The "worst" is never the worst.

31-33

Why? Because the Master won't ever walk out and fail to return.If he works severely, he also works tenderly. His stockpiles of loyal love are immense.He takes no pleasure in making life hard, in throwing roadblocks in the way:

Older Brother and Younger Brother, By Ps. Mark Conner

Sunday 4th October 2009

As usually, wake up at 6 AM, and getting ready for church. I knew that today will be Ps. Mark Conner that bring up the sermon. I really never expected that it’s going to be beyond great, I mean, no offense I love all the pastor that brings sermon in JPCC, I love them all ^^

I’ll just get to the point, what Ps. Mark Conner talking about is really a revelation for me, the thought that I never imagine it before. I’ll start with Luke 15: 1-31, it says:

The Parable of the Lost Sheep

1Now the tax collectors and "sinners" were all gathering around to hear him. 2But the Pharisees and the teachers of the law muttered, "This man welcomes sinners and eats with them."
3Then Jesus told them this parable: 4"Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Does he not leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? 5And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders 6and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, 'Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.' 7I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent.

The Parable of the Lost Coin

8"Or suppose a woman has ten silver coins[a] and loses one. Does she not light a lamp, sweep the house and search carefully until she finds it? 9And when she finds it, she calls her friends and neighbors together and says, 'Rejoice with me; I have found my lost coin.' 10In the same way, I tell you, there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents."

The Parable of the Lost Son

11Jesus continued: "There was a man who had two sons. 12The younger one said to his father, 'Father, give me my share of the estate.' So he divided his property between them.

13"Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. 14After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. 15So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. 16He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.

17"When he came to his senses, he said, 'How many of my father's hired men have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! 18I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. 19I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired men.' 20So he got up and went to his father.
"But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.

21"The son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.[b]'

22"But the father said to his servants, 'Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. 23Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let's have a feast and celebrate. 24For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' So they began to celebrate.

25"Meanwhile, the older son was in the field. When he came near the house, he heard music and dancing. 26So he called one of the servants and asked him what was going on. 27'Your brother has come,' he replied, 'and your father has killed the fattened calf because he has him back safe and sound.'

28"The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father went out and pleaded with him. 29But he answered his father, 'Look! All these years I've been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends. 30But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for him!'

31" 'My son,' the father said, 'you are always with me, and everything I have is yours. 32But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' "

You’ll probably know this story, it might be the favorite one which tell about the lost, and be welcome by the father (in Heaven). I’m really excited and there’s many things to write down but don’t know where to start ^^ I’ll try my best to deliver it well to you.

In all three parables, there are similarities, “Lost – Found – Rejoice” but if you take your time and read it carefully there are actually one different, from the first and second parable, the master (the one that fell lost) is the one looking out, searching the lost one, but in the parable of the lost son, the lost himself that return to the master (father). This is one thing, you’ll find another thing… buckle up.. ^^

There is one interesting about the parable of the lost son (I’ll be focused in this one).
• The first scene is the ‘younger’ son asking his share from his father (this is considered so rude, when you asking your share while your father is still alive), then he left his father.
• The second scene is the ‘younger’ son spent up all of his money, in party committed sin, he have a lot of friends (FYI: it’s a common practice that if u have a lot of money, friends tend to come)
• The third scene he’s on the edge of desperation, even he need to work in a pig farm, feeding the pig, out of starvation he even not allowed to share the pig food. Guess what, he broke and have no friends, then he realize that he want to come home, being the servant of his father even have a better life.
• The fourth scene, on the way home, from far away, the father can see the ‘younger’ brother. The father run into him, hug him and kiss him full of compassionate , even he ask all the servant to bring some robe, ring and sandals for the ‘younger’ brother and even so the father held a party, a celebration for his ‘younger’ son. The ‘younger’ brother enters the house again.

This is the story of the ‘older’ brother:
• The first scene, he aware that the father gives his share to the ‘younger’ brother.
• The second scene will represent his life while the ‘younger’ brother flees away, and enjoying his life, with his way to the max. The ‘older’ brother in the other hand, work so hard, never complaint, obey his entire father asking for.
• The third scene, while he is working hard on the field, he heard some music, and be told that the ‘younger’ brother has return, and the Master throw a party, and kill the fattened calf for his ‘younger’ brother, remember this, that this ‘older’ brother is outside of house, and he so furious with his father and refuse to come in and join the party, but once again, the father came outside to talk to the ‘older’ brother, trying to persuade him to join the party, the story end here.

I’m 100% believe, if we watching movie, end it end like this, we would be so mad, and curious about the real end of this story, whether the ’older’ brother came in to he house again or not. We all will have the same question, and neither one of us can answer it; it left only Jesus that can answer or finish the story. There is something that God wanting us to know; here is the shocking part (for me).

In this parable, it should be represent something, ‘older’ brother represent Pharisee, and the teacher of the law; ‘younger’ brother represent sinners and tax collectors; Home represent heaven; and finally, father represent our beloved Father in heaven.

If we try to look in New Testament the entire ‘older’ brother is trying to judge people, even Jesus Himself. They think really hard how to interpret the law from the Old Testament, for example “what you can do and u can’t do on the Sabbath” they find to a conclusion that if you tied a knot wit only one hand, you’re not violating the Sabbath law, but if you’re using both hand, than you violating the law. (I’m not sure about this, I think this is just example, I’m totally trying to deliver what Ps. Mark Conner said ^^ )

There’re a lot of even where the ‘older’ brother complaining to Jesus, while He trying to tie a knot with 2 hands with the ‘younger’ brother. It’s really hurtful for me to say this, maybe that I’m one of the ‘older’ brother, maybe you, or someone you know. What is Jesus trying to say is, approach you ‘younger’ brother, than they will automatically follow you, in short Jesus show some love to them, en they turn themselves in, not in the other way (you Follow Jesus and then He’ll love you – NOT AT ALL!!!) Many times Jesus show to us, the He first loves us, never en ever he asked us to follow Him first, He love you anyway. One of the stories that suit this is story about Jesus meat Zacchaeus (Luke 19:1-10). Jesus did not ask him to directly change, Jesus having lunch first with him, and you know how the story goes.

Let’s back to the story, (this is just my opinion) its ok for us to live like the ’younger’ brother, exploiting something new, explore yourself even more (of course within direction and wisdom), we tend to live like the ‘older’ brother, saying, “hey I’m the one will enter the heaven, I do obey my God, I did everything according to His will” but guess what, the ‘older’ brother is the one outside the house!!! Isn’t shocking, what does it suppose to mean? When I heard that, it fell like thousands of knives flying into my heart!!

I’m certainly thing that we can’t take this literally. Jesus just wants to show us something, He might say this to the ‘older’ brother:

“My Son, you know that I love you all so much, I appreciate a lot that you knew Me, you did whatever I asked you to be, you are the one that know me more than anybody, and since that I’m already leaving the earth, and all I can depend on just the Holy Spirit that stay within you, so what I’m asking you to do is, just simply reach out for your younger brother, they need you to be by their side, to feel Me within your presence there. I would love to see both of you in my house, could you do that to Me”

Love,
Jesus Christ

This parable just want to teach us, that God really want us to reach out, find our own beloved brother (I say it never been easy) God gave all of the resources needed, compassion, strength, Holy Spirit, creativity, etc. But if we not carefully, it will lead us up the other way… So the choice is yours, I would like to say that Ps. Mark Conner words, is the best revelation that I got this year, I’m still waiting good things to happen this year, it’s already October now, but still having faith out of it. Have a nice day guys… Hope it bless you as well.

Triple Nine Day

9 September 09

It’s triple 9 day… and will make a mark by writing something here.

9 is my favorite number, even though there’s no particular reason for that, just love it. The number is usually used by a striker in a soccer game; they are the so called “finisher”, which mean the decider. Most of the goal score is from the striker position, one of my idols is Ronaldo from Brazil, he has such a tremendous skill, a very skillful palyer, that scored a lots of goal.

In this life I much describe myself as the striker, and a decider. I just somehow and someway have a confidence in term of making a decision. Eventually I’ve got no evidence right now telling the story of my success and talent that been given by God to me. But I got a strong feeling I’m going to be a good one, not just in my life, but also in every area that God trusted me to. In a bigger picture, I want to be a person that makes a tremendous impact in my family, society, environment etc. Just like a striker that is a decider on the field, to take a team win by his goal.

In the past several weeks I’ve been trying hard to be a (more) faithful son to Him. Right now I’m in terrible situation; I’ve been struggle with things. But somehow I’m managed to get through each and everyday, without any real burden. And everyday I always saying to myself a positive things, “Erick today is going to be a great day”, “today something good will just happen”, “the day that you waiting for will eventually come, BY THIS DAY” the fact until now, nothing great happen to me, but I still having a faith that eventually will come. Right now my motto is God will never leave you, nor forsake you. Recently I just heard a sermon by Ps. Joel Osteen. It’s about a blessing from God that’s on the way, that is help is just in time, we just need to be ready to receive it, and the most important things is say it always. Every morning I practice it, say good thing that I want to happen (for sure also, by His will). It’s hurt honestly, if what you’re asking to happen delay by God. And every nite while praying looks like I’m complaining to God.

Since today is 09 09 09 I really expect something big will happen, something that will set me free, and all of the people involved in this mess. If it’s not happening today, there is still tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow….

So I’m learning to be more faithful and patience, I know what I’m capable of, moreover what God can do in my life… He is just Awesome, beyond Awesomeness.. Thank God..

-God doesn't create evil, evil is a result of what happen when man doesn't have God's Love present in his heart- Albert Einstein

"Quoting"

I'm Quoting this from my sister blog, I found it interesting, she has been some kind of anger to one of her friend, that act like the first quote, and if my sister insisting not to forgive or let it go, it will be the same..

Being a Christian not just about how many hours you put in prayers, reading bible, attending Christian conferences, church and put your days in to fasting if you do not have the character of Christ.

And somehow God replied:

"Look, if I never let you go through this event, you will end up the same. You can praise and read the bible everyday, but you are not showing my character, it will be useless"

God bless u friends.... ^^

J U D G E

I just want to share a bit here, I get this from last sermon by Ps. Allan Meyer.

In the old testament, we find that after Adam fell into sin, we seem look God as judgmental God, we have no privilege to have a Father and Son relationship like when Adam not fell into sin yet.

God Himself not comfortable with that kind situation, that's why He send he beloved Son, Jesus Christ, come down to earth and pay all of human beings debt on the Cross, and He said "It is finished"

From that moment our God is not a judgmental God anymore, He is our Father, and we have that privilege again to have Father-Son relationship with Him, but why sometimes we felt uncomfortable speaking about our Father, our God, our Savior. He is not a condemn God, He is God of Love, love that can't be measure by human, but surely we can demonstrate it.

This world in desperate need of love, the least we can do is share God's love, in every way that you can interpret. When you do this, u give a help for this world. Love is all we need right now, I'm not talking about romantic Love ^^ but Love, unconditional Love, friends it's not going to be easy, not at all. Once Mother Theresa says "If we can't love the person whom we see, how can we love God, whom we cannot see" I'm going to make this simple, "We love the God that we can't see, why it's hard to Love person that we can see"

Spread some sincerity Love and unconditional Love... I'm working on it also, let's begin from small steps, through your environment at office, business place, at home towards our maid, driver, neighbor... Money can't buy Love!!

Have a nice day all...

-By Far- Most exciting Moment in 2009

August 8^th

I have to admit, that day is the most fun and awesome day for this year (so far). It has been a while for me, that I can have so much fun, with friends in Dufan (Indonesia only one theme park). The last time I visit was like more less 7 years!!! ago…. We laugh together, shout together and even cry together =(

I might say that is what I need in these moments, after 2 months far from social live and civilization; it’s the perfect gate away!!!

The day start really slow, I only slept for 6 hours, then I have to finish my office work for a while (Erick doing His office job at home, it’s a miracle) ^^ At 8 someone remind me that we have a ‘breakfast date’. The other night I was thought she was joking that she would like to have breakfast with me, so I kind of not prepare for everything. Right after Her text me I rush to take a shower and go the rendezvous (SinPa’sa) we’re having a nice and very delicious Jambi’s Noodle while waiting for David to pick us up (Special thanks to David that He willing to sacrifice to pick us from PIK to Karawaci, and later we found out that we should have join Yoshua, because he lives nearby; u’re awesome bro!!!)

The journey begin,

Right after David pick us (me and Liana) we straight went to Mery house and pick Manda near ancol. We gathered there around 11AM and it was crowded already. David (again) with His humble heart queuing for all of us for the ticket. We’re fortunately having some disc from the ticket. When we enter Dufan, it’s already 12PM and it’s lunch time!!! We’re having our lunch at McD.

After finish with the lunch we directly go for our first ride, everybody join except fro Yoshua and Roni. I tell you, that I’m having a super great time there. We really maximized our limited time there, playing from 12 till 8PM. It’s really a blessing for me that I still got cool and awesome friends, and they are a truly nice and decent man and woman. I can’t give thanks more for God allowed me to know them. Every expression show tired face, but also full of excitement and also happiness at the end. I felt that we’re like knowing each other for a long time, and I can say that that day is the first time (since I work in Karawang) I feel satisfied with live, I don’t want to end the day!!!

After a tiring day, all wet from the ride also from sweat we decide to go home, and having our last supper for Hilda and Rini. This is the sad part, where we have to let go our beloved friends, it’s tough but, we can’t be selfish. We’re having the dinner in Meri Lim’s restaurant, call ‘Oca’ it provide Japanese food. The dinner went well; we’re eating like crazy Hahhahahaha…. (or just me??)

22.00 PM. We just finished our dinner, now the time for say good bye, we’re praying for each other at that moment, especially for Hilda and Rini, they will be entering the next phase of their life, Getting married!!! Once again, it’s great and pleasure for me to know u, I believe this won’t be the end of everything, we still can get update from ‘Facebook’ or for Hilda we can still visit each other.. ^^ I’m praying all the best for both of you, u all will be an awesome mom and wives, may God give u wisdom for each and every day, and we all believers says Ameeeeenn !!!!! Going to miss u in Sunday School.

On Sunday I also got the other farewell… I’m going to miss Ashley and Aaron… they’re going back to USA.. =(