-End of July and Start of August-

It’s officially a month now stay in Karawang… working here and be a totally (still) strangers…

But I thanked God every weekend I still go back to a civilization, met my friend, and family.

Just yesterday hearing a shocking news, that one of my colleague is having interview today, he even only 5 months here, and he already to think to get away from here (same with me here) but practically for a different reason (sort of the same but they’re different)

Right now my feeling and thought is still the same, I can’t get along here I just don’t know why it just can’t happen. Maybe some of you that knew me would say there’s nothing wrong with me, some of u just “so so” know me, might say that I’m a quiet or talk less person. In fact I’m not at all I’m quiet talkative if I found a person that share same thoughts, etc….

in contrary in the past few weeks ago, I’ve been blessed a lot by Ps. Kong Hee, He truly a man of God (not mention also my Ps. In JPCC, I love u all and u’re awesome!!! Hahaahaha )I’ve been heard from Him how u can relate with ur live, church is only one thing, but the purpose of what we all made in this world is only one, glorify His name, by what?? By showing to them how good God is, how He have a full compassion an endless love no matter what and who we are, because basically ‘we’ all is His image. I realize my self that we can be like a superman in our own church, and felt no body can beat us, and to all the non believer we felt superior than them, we sometimes judges them, condemn them, but only in Sunday…. In the other day?? Mon – Sat we are the loser; we don’t even know how to react in this world we sometime hiding in our very comfort zone just to wait until Sunday come again or worst we act like them in the weekdays. Ironic huh?? I’m not saying this because of im perfect enough or whatsoever, I’m still learning, matter of fact I just learn, it will not be easy but that is the purpose that God put on us, I like the slogan that Giordano use, we should make this world “world without stranger” love one another like you love ur own God.

When we can make an impact in the society, or Ps. Kong Hee said 2^nd zone/world, 1st world is our church, which we only live in there like 2-5 hours a day. What we live most is in this 2^nd world, where we spent almost all of our time, like school, business, market, entertainment , etc we need to do something there, after we got a protection and blessing and strength from the 1^st place we apply it in this world. After we success in this part we can be taken to the 3^rd world, which all the elite live, politician , great and influence business man, and all great people that have influence on this world (literally) When we got there, and can make an influence there, we can change the world!!! It’s awesome to know it, that we need to be really excellent to be draw near to this 3^rd world, God has planted an awesome seed into all of use, with our own uniqueness so, why don’t we gave it all back to Him.

And also I learn about “What to do ,when you don’t know what to do”, I forgot the detail (I’m not writing it down because I’m so amazed with Ps. Kong Hee hahaahahah) at the Sunday services. I’ll do my best to write it down, I’m also looking forward to find the sermon’s copy ^^ , the point that I remember is, Stand before God, focus on God’s promises not your problem, wait for Holy Spirit – (I’ll update as soon as I get the detail)

So what I’m struggling rite now is should I stay here, where all of my body and mind is not in here anymore, every night I’m shout out… “GOD PLEASE GET ME OUTTA HERE” still having faith that “rancangan-Mu adalah rancangan yang indah,bukanlah rancangan yang jahat” I’m willing to hold His promises. (while searching for alternatives of course…hahaahaha)

I miss my friends a lot, I miss my ex-colleague there I miss every single second that I spent with them, in good and bad moment.

I miss joking with Debby, sometimes She got to serious and I’m like nothing to do en go in her place start to make noise there, gossiping talking about or lovely BF and the company … missing a lot that time ^^

Miss also chat with Laidy, if I feel hungry his place is surely number one come out in my mind, cause he always keep a lot of food there, he’s kind of stockiest for me.. hahhahha miss u bro ^^

For my neighbor also, I miss her a lot while she get mad to supplier, talking and joking with driver (hahaahhaaha), I miss her spirit that make me amaze, and did make me think for a moment ‘should I leave SM’ (turns out to be right hahahaaha…) Her wisdom, wise word, determination and all great stuff that a future mom have had… really nice to know you and looking forward to see u,

I miss each and every person there, even though we’re not close enough but still it’s nice to have friends at the same age, same level etc

I miss ci Catrin with all Her Baganesse food, and her so ‘quite’ daughter (maybe just in front of me hahahahha) Miss talking with her also, even She’s so busy back then but I can get some good advise and have a quite nice conversation with her…

I MISS EVERYTHING THErE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Miss Jakarta, Miss KArawaci, Miss Supermall, Miss SMS, Miss my old friends’ en etc.. SUPER BIG TIME!!!

I guess I need stop here, or I’ll even get more emotional…. ><

I need extra strength and answer for my entire question; I’ll learn to focus on His promises..

Thanks to one of my friends in TGR, who never tired to support me and chat with me during the office hour.. ahhaahhaaha

Note: The first part I write at 31th July and the 2^nd part just now, 3^rd August. Today is her birthday and I’m praying all the best for her carrier, education, family, friends and her health, wishing also that all of her dream come true, and mine.. ^^