Wednesday, January 14, 2009

" Speechless "

I'm listening to "Lead me to the cross" - by United right now... I really love this song.

Savior I come
Quiet my soul remember
Redemptions hill
Where Your blood was spilled
For my ransom
"Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost"

Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me, lead me to the cross

You were as I
Tempted and trialed
You are
Te word became flesh
Bore my sin and death
Now you're risen

To your heart
To your heart
Lead me to your heart
Lead me to your heart

Ok, I really don't know what happened to me over this week, It's been a heavy and tough week for me, I'm facing really a huge problem, problem that I even think will never happen, guess I'm underestimate things. Actually it's not directly my problem, but it hit the one I love, I wish that I really can write it all here, but it's to personal and I think it's unethical for it. (hopefully one day I can share it here)

I'm learning not to complained to God, It's also one of my resolution ( be a better Erick ). But being one of it it's surely difficult guys, you need to walk for an extra mile for it. I know that He knew this problem, and have His own planned for this, it's really bother me EVERY MINUTES OF MY LIVES, I became less focuss, and many more...... I have shared this to one of my friend, I guess it's a relieve when you can tell it to someone, it make you feel lighter, but this burden is almost overwhelmed me, I just can hold on God promises that " He never give us something that over than our power " I just have to have faith that this thing is going to make Erick stronger, every problem will only have 2 result, your capacity being extended or make you even worst, and I'm looking forward to get past this and my capacity being extended.

Everyday I'm asking more Power and strength to get trough this, cause there's less people that I can share with. As I mentioned before, it's actually not directly my problem, but He's someone special for me, and I Love Him very much, it's as if become mine. I really hope that He can learn something out of this, and never ever do the same stupid things again in the future.

"God I pray to you that you gave Him strength, I love Him God, and I just want really this just pass away, but I guess it's wise for Him to really learned something in this problem that He have, it's already consumed a great amount of energy, physical and mind. I know that He really depressed, but God once again I'm asking you to gave him power to overcome it, and teach Him to be more wise, and everything have it's own consequences, and He can get the message. I pray God, that He can find a solution for this, not just an easy bailout of this problem, but a solution that He felt responsible for this. It's just not Him only that stressed out, but He make everyone too. God I know that you love Him, and you never forsake Him, never Leave Him, I really hope that He will run to you. And I pray God, that there's no stupid things happen that will just make things worst. Thank you for everything God, You kept your hand in Him.. Only in Jesus name I pray.. Ameen"

I really hope that he see this....
and I really wish this will over ASAP, cause it's getting me more frustrated...

So, see you next time, I'm watching MU-Wigan, and MU leading 1-0,goal by Rooney ^^

1 comment:

Unknown said...

hey bro...
said to ur BIG problem that I have a BIG GOD ^^