"Music and Lyrics"

" I'm not sleepy right now, so i decided to write something, i'm kinda enjoyed writing things now.. ^^. I have just watch Music and Lyrics performed by Hugh Grant and Drew Barymore, it's kind of old movie, I buyed the dvd long ago, but just manage to watch it rite now hehehe.... It's just a romantic movie, but i like the soundtrack it's called "way back into love" the movie was telling about how this character called Alex (Hugh G) make a song, He's assisted by this girl called Sophie (Drew B). And finally they fell in love… simple story, I haven’t seen romantic movie, I even can’t remember when the last time I watched it.

Hope it start and end well.... ^^

This very 2AM my heart was just in roller coaster, it makes me happy, worried and even sad; I don’t know why, maybe because what is going to happened today. Maybe it will called a first date ( I really hoped it happen today) It’s the second time I met in person, hope everything went well. I’m trying to tell myself a positive thing, that I can do it, Please God make today beautiful, PLEASE…..

I’m not going to say that I’m fall in love, it’s just a physical attraction between man and women, nothing more, so far… ^^ just want to get to know her more (this is the very exciting things when you want to build a relationship) well the impression so far is ok, even better, so really looking forward for today, I really want to make her friend of mine..

Today at 10AM I have to go to church, we’re going to make up the storage room and talk about our plan in the forthcoming weeks; it’ll be fun, and interesting. I really love to see Little Heaven grow even bigger and more mature, we can handle the kids, and be able to teach them the foundation of God…. The funny things I haven’t sleep yet…AAAAHHhhhhHHHhhhhh…….

This post will be short, I’m really want to write something about this very first months of 2009, the sermon from Ps. Jeff and Ps.Jose.. so stay tuned, I think I’m going to sleep (hopefully) I’m in the middle of between happy and sad…

About my problem in last post, not much progress, things seems very uncertain, even get weird… but the good things is I have less stress than yesterday, of course still hoping “the love one” have the same thing, “please open your heart, speak to me… if not, how can I really help you” the more important thing, keep God in your heart and mind, don’t let the wicked outsmart you, you were designed to win over him, you are more powerful than him…

Good Night Guys….

" Speechless "

I'm listening to "Lead me to the cross" - by United right now... I really love this song.

Savior I come
Quiet my soul remember
Redemptions hill
Where Your blood was spilled
For my ransom
"Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost"

Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me, lead me to the cross

You were as I
Tempted and trialed
You are
Te word became flesh
Bore my sin and death
Now you're risen

To your heart
To your heart
Lead me to your heart
Lead me to your heart

Ok, I really don't know what happened to me over this week, It's been a heavy and tough week for me, I'm facing really a huge problem, problem that I even think will never happen, guess I'm underestimate things. Actually it's not directly my problem, but it hit the one I love, I wish that I really can write it all here, but it's to personal and I think it's unethical for it. (hopefully one day I can share it here)

I'm learning not to complained to God, It's also one of my resolution ( be a better Erick ). But being one of it it's surely difficult guys, you need to walk for an extra mile for it. I know that He knew this problem, and have His own planned for this, it's really bother me EVERY MINUTES OF MY LIVES, I became less focuss, and many more...... I have shared this to one of my friend, I guess it's a relieve when you can tell it to someone, it make you feel lighter, but this burden is almost overwhelmed me, I just can hold on God promises that " He never give us something that over than our power " I just have to have faith that this thing is going to make Erick stronger, every problem will only have 2 result, your capacity being extended or make you even worst, and I'm looking forward to get past this and my capacity being extended.

Everyday I'm asking more Power and strength to get trough this, cause there's less people that I can share with. As I mentioned before, it's actually not directly my problem, but He's someone special for me, and I Love Him very much, it's as if become mine. I really hope that He can learn something out of this, and never ever do the same stupid things again in the future.

"God I pray to you that you gave Him strength, I love Him God, and I just want really this just pass away, but I guess it's wise for Him to really learned something in this problem that He have, it's already consumed a great amount of energy, physical and mind. I know that He really depressed, but God once again I'm asking you to gave him power to overcome it, and teach Him to be more wise, and everything have it's own consequences, and He can get the message. I pray God, that He can find a solution for this, not just an easy bailout of this problem, but a solution that He felt responsible for this. It's just not Him only that stressed out, but He make everyone too. God I know that you love Him, and you never forsake Him, never Leave Him, I really hope that He will run to you. And I pray God, that there's no stupid things happen that will just make things worst. Thank you for everything God, You kept your hand in Him.. Only in Jesus name I pray.. Ameen"

I really hope that he see this....
and I really wish this will over ASAP, cause it's getting me more frustrated...

So, see you next time, I'm watching MU-Wigan, and MU leading 1-0,goal by Rooney ^^

" Welcome 2009 "

Best Friend ever from Left to Right ( Me, Dyke, Danny and Yusly)

This is my first entry, It's been a roller coaster ride in 2008, there's a lot of things happened back there, there's Joy, sadness, everything's there..... and my 2008 resolution, none of it make it!! Now it's already 2009 again, and I have to set my new resolution... There are a lot of things that I want to do, maybe I can share a bit of it, so "welcome 2009"

I spent my New year eve at my friends house, we're playing fireworks, eating (is a must), and giving (the host, and I get one heheheh) presents. before it, I have my Lunch/Dinner (cause we have it like on 3PM) at Charcoal in Gedung Veteran 16th Floor ( Yus, I'm gonna charge for the advertising fee here.. ^^ ) It's a buffet lunch, and I thought it will be the last time I ate like "Crazy" it's really unbelievable, I ate till I cant breathe more..... we finish like around 5PM, it's really fun one, I met some of my several college friends. So now back to the resolution...

Here is the top ten list must done :

#1 : Live a healthy Life - I'm almost 80kg now, it's really scare me a lot, just fyi, 2 years back i'm only 60's kg, it almost raise one kg each month, so my target this year would be 65kg, how to achieve it, i'll try my best to wake up really early in the morning, en jogg for 30 minutes before works, apply from Monday to Friday, Saturday and Sunday 'off' huehuheheuehe.... at least i'm trying...

#2 : Find a DATE and Date - DATE, I'm already off from DATE for almost a year I guess (DATE is a cell group in JPCC) I really need it, to kept my spiritual life growing also, keep life in balance... for the action, I'll find a DATE around Green Garden or Green Ville ; Date I've been single for almost 2 years I guess, cant remember much of it... this is not really important, just want to make it the same with DATE.. hahahhaha.... (ga nyambung) the action, not really sure, met one girl, still get to know her, so we'll see... (God please, I really like this Girl, and She's really gorgeous) and other concern is, I'm 25 already ^^

#3 : Will be right back...... I have to go..... so see you..... ^^ (promise you will update you tonight)-Ok let's continue, Number 3 is, I want to kept writing on this blog, hopefully I'll update every week, or at least twice a month, sharing my life, which I believe this year is going to be an awesome year for me (I don't know, just felt that something amazing will happen to me this year) I think I'll be a different people, a better one, so You'll be kept in touch with it... enjoy it..

#4 : Will often keep in touch with my super best friends, I'll talk to Him every starts a day and when it ends.. . because I want Him to know how much I love Him... (this is the most challenging one)

#5 : I want to get to close to my Brother and Mom, I've been have this resolution for years, but never make it, I just wonder how it's not working, I can do it with my sister... so God help me through it.....

#6 : I want debt free this year,you know that CC is a evil card... (heuheuheuhe blame on the card) and start to have saving for future ( I know it's sound stupid, but,better than never I guess)

#7 : I want to have my on Digital Camera, I just figured out (where have I been.. ^^) I want to captured all of moments that I've been through, with friends and family, so it will last forever...

#8 : I want to renew again my devotion in serving God, at JPCC Kids, I always love it, Love the kids, and seeing them grow up become the next generation of this world, at the end of last year I felt a bit bored with it, and kind of doing it for routine, but after some serious thinking I'll stay, cause it's at least what I can do for God, so I'll find a new motivation an passionate for them again, and I'm having it again now....

How cute She is..... ^^

#9 : You know I felt that I have hundreds things to say, and write on this resolution, but some how I forgot it.. ^^ give me a time to think it again.......... . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .................................................................................................. Hmmmmmmmmm.... Im going to be an entrepreneur , still figuring out what kind of business what i'm into, but hope He will reveal something for me.....that's number 9..

#10 : Love God more and more and more, getting into the next level in my life, learn how to knock His heart and heaven, to be more sensitive hear His direction... I Love you God... more than anything, I'm sure u know it.....


So that is my 10 resolution for this year, I'm really hope all of it can be achieve, cause I belive something that you said it out loud, will motivate you more to do it, and will succeed, I dont want to be person who just talk much, but no action, maybe sometimes I'm kinda that kind of person, so this would be a test for me, how far I intend to change, Last thing from this first post I love you Sis, u've been a great inspiration for me, Love you too Bro, Mom and Dad, and thank God I get into this family, it's not perfect but, U make worth every second of it, so see you on the next post... ^^ have a great day...