Friday, October 30, 2009

Weekend.....

End of October....

I just can't believe that it's already November again, en when I look up to my resolution, *sigh* you know what i meant... Hahahahahaaha...

I always believe, and saying to myself times to times that this year I will receive something big, that will eventually change my life, with 2 months left, i keep manage my expectation high (even deep down, really deep down.. there's pessimism, but i tend to buried it really deep.

It have been an unpleasant 2nd semester in my life, seriously in my Life!! It's really tough a lot of things happen and reach it peak. But thank you I have such a great family, friends and God. I really hang on Lamentation 3 from Message bible.

Today i manage to write something because of my boss is not around and I'm finish my job already, and counting down to 5 now. On Sunday will have some meeting, (not really a meeting) hang out with my friends, that always be there for me, that kept me alive Hahahahhaha... We're planning to have a lunch in Plaza Indonesia, and I'm really craving for Burgers!! I have to eat one this weekend!! It's going to be fun, and I'm looking forward to it.

And I really got a change to relate with all the JPCC Kids teacher on 21st November. We're having an out bound in Jakarta, it's all day event en surely it's going to be awesome!!! Will get back to write more....

God bless and keep head up...

Lamentation

This post just simply to remind me this moment I've been through....

One of my friend share this passage, en I find it "AWESOME"

Lamentation 3 (Message Version)
It's a Good Thing to Hope for Help from God
19-21
I'll never forget the trouble, the utter lostness, the taste of ashes, the poison I've swallowed.I remember it all—oh, how well I remember— the feeling of hitting the bottom.But there's one other thing I remember, and remembering, I keep a grip on hope:

22-24
God's loyal love couldn't have run out, his merciful love couldn't have dried up.They're created new every morning. How great your faithfulness!I'm sticking with God (I say it over and over). He's all I've got left.

25-27
God proves to be good to the man who passionately waits, to the woman who diligently seeks.It's a good thing to quietly hope, quietly hope for help from God.It's a good thing when you're young to stick it out through the hard times.

28-30
When life is heavy and hard to take, go off by yourself. Enter the silence.Bow in prayer. Don't ask questions: Wait for hope to appear.Don't run from trouble. Take it full-face. The "worst" is never the worst.

31-33
Why? Because the Master won't ever walk out and fail to return.If he works severely, he also works tenderly. His stockpiles of loyal love are immense.He takes no pleasure in making life hard, in throwing roadblocks in the way:

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Older Brother and Younger Brother, By Ps. Mark Conner

Sunday 4th October 2009

As usually, wake up at 6 AM, and getting ready for church. I knew that today will be Ps. Mark Conner that bring up the sermon. I really never expected that it’s going to be beyond great, I mean, no offense I love all the pastor that brings sermon in JPCC, I love them all ^^

I’ll just get to the point, what Ps. Mark Conner talking about is really a revelation for me, the thought that I never imagine it before. I’ll start with Luke 15: 1-31, it says:

The Parable of the Lost Sheep

1Now the tax collectors and "sinners" were all gathering around to hear him. 2But the Pharisees and the teachers of the law muttered, "This man welcomes sinners and eats with them."
3Then Jesus told them this parable: 4"Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Does he not leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? 5And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders 6and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, 'Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.' 7I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent.

The Parable of the Lost Coin

8"Or suppose a woman has ten silver coins[a] and loses one. Does she not light a lamp, sweep the house and search carefully until she finds it? 9And when she finds it, she calls her friends and neighbors together and says, 'Rejoice with me; I have found my lost coin.' 10In the same way, I tell you, there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents."

The Parable of the Lost Son

11Jesus continued: "There was a man who had two sons. 12The younger one said to his father, 'Father, give me my share of the estate.' So he divided his property between them.

13"Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. 14After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. 15So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. 16He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.

17"When he came to his senses, he said, 'How many of my father's hired men have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! 18I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. 19I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired men.' 20So he got up and went to his father.
"But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.

21"The son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.[b]'

22"But the father said to his servants, 'Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. 23Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let's have a feast and celebrate. 24For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' So they began to celebrate.

25"Meanwhile, the older son was in the field. When he came near the house, he heard music and dancing. 26So he called one of the servants and asked him what was going on. 27'Your brother has come,' he replied, 'and your father has killed the fattened calf because he has him back safe and sound.'

28"The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father went out and pleaded with him. 29But he answered his father, 'Look! All these years I've been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends. 30But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for him!'

31" 'My son,' the father said, 'you are always with me, and everything I have is yours. 32But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' "

You’ll probably know this story, it might be the favorite one which tell about the lost, and be welcome by the father (in Heaven). I’m really excited and there’s many things to write down but don’t know where to start ^^ I’ll try my best to deliver it well to you.

In all three parables, there are similarities, “Lost – Found – Rejoice” but if you take your time and read it carefully there are actually one different, from the first and second parable, the master (the one that fell lost) is the one looking out, searching the lost one, but in the parable of the lost son, the lost himself that return to the master (father). This is one thing, you’ll find another thing… buckle up.. ^^

There is one interesting about the parable of the lost son (I’ll be focused in this one).
• The first scene is the ‘younger’ son asking his share from his father (this is considered so rude, when you asking your share while your father is still alive), then he left his father.
• The second scene is the ‘younger’ son spent up all of his money, in party committed sin, he have a lot of friends (FYI: it’s a common practice that if u have a lot of money, friends tend to come)
• The third scene he’s on the edge of desperation, even he need to work in a pig farm, feeding the pig, out of starvation he even not allowed to share the pig food. Guess what, he broke and have no friends, then he realize that he want to come home, being the servant of his father even have a better life.
• The fourth scene, on the way home, from far away, the father can see the ‘younger’ brother. The father run into him, hug him and kiss him full of compassionate , even he ask all the servant to bring some robe, ring and sandals for the ‘younger’ brother and even so the father held a party, a celebration for his ‘younger’ son. The ‘younger’ brother enters the house again.

This is the story of the ‘older’ brother:
• The first scene, he aware that the father gives his share to the ‘younger’ brother.
• The second scene will represent his life while the ‘younger’ brother flees away, and enjoying his life, with his way to the max. The ‘older’ brother in the other hand, work so hard, never complaint, obey his entire father asking for.
• The third scene, while he is working hard on the field, he heard some music, and be told that the ‘younger’ brother has return, and the Master throw a party, and kill the fattened calf for his ‘younger’ brother, remember this, that this ‘older’ brother is outside of house, and he so furious with his father and refuse to come in and join the party, but once again, the father came outside to talk to the ‘older’ brother, trying to persuade him to join the party, the story end here.

I’m 100% believe, if we watching movie, end it end like this, we would be so mad, and curious about the real end of this story, whether the ’older’ brother came in to he house again or not. We all will have the same question, and neither one of us can answer it; it left only Jesus that can answer or finish the story. There is something that God wanting us to know; here is the shocking part (for me).

In this parable, it should be represent something, ‘older’ brother represent Pharisee, and the teacher of the law; ‘younger’ brother represent sinners and tax collectors; Home represent heaven; and finally, father represent our beloved Father in heaven.

If we try to look in New Testament the entire ‘older’ brother is trying to judge people, even Jesus Himself. They think really hard how to interpret the law from the Old Testament, for example “what you can do and u can’t do on the Sabbath” they find to a conclusion that if you tied a knot wit only one hand, you’re not violating the Sabbath law, but if you’re using both hand, than you violating the law. (I’m not sure about this, I think this is just example, I’m totally trying to deliver what Ps. Mark Conner said ^^ )

There’re a lot of even where the ‘older’ brother complaining to Jesus, while He trying to tie a knot with 2 hands with the ‘younger’ brother. It’s really hurtful for me to say this, maybe that I’m one of the ‘older’ brother, maybe you, or someone you know. What is Jesus trying to say is, approach you ‘younger’ brother, than they will automatically follow you, in short Jesus show some love to them, en they turn themselves in, not in the other way (you Follow Jesus and then He’ll love you – NOT AT ALL!!!) Many times Jesus show to us, the He first loves us, never en ever he asked us to follow Him first, He love you anyway. One of the stories that suit this is story about Jesus meat Zacchaeus (Luke 19:1-10). Jesus did not ask him to directly change, Jesus having lunch first with him, and you know how the story goes.

Let’s back to the story, (this is just my opinion) its ok for us to live like the ’younger’ brother, exploiting something new, explore yourself even more (of course within direction and wisdom), we tend to live like the ‘older’ brother, saying, “hey I’m the one will enter the heaven, I do obey my God, I did everything according to His will” but guess what, the ‘older’ brother is the one outside the house!!! Isn’t shocking, what does it suppose to mean? When I heard that, it fell like thousands of knives flying into my heart!!

I’m certainly thing that we can’t take this literally. Jesus just wants to show us something, He might say this to the ‘older’ brother:

“My Son, you know that I love you all so much, I appreciate a lot that you knew Me, you did whatever I asked you to be, you are the one that know me more than anybody, and since that I’m already leaving the earth, and all I can depend on just the Holy Spirit that stay within you, so what I’m asking you to do is, just simply reach out for your younger brother, they need you to be by their side, to feel Me within your presence there. I would love to see both of you in my house, could you do that to Me”

Love,
Jesus Christ

This parable just want to teach us, that God really want us to reach out, find our own beloved brother (I say it never been easy) God gave all of the resources needed, compassion, strength, Holy Spirit, creativity, etc. But if we not carefully, it will lead us up the other way… So the choice is yours, I would like to say that Ps. Mark Conner words, is the best revelation that I got this year, I’m still waiting good things to happen this year, it’s already October now, but still having faith out of it. Have a nice day guys… Hope it bless you as well.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Triple Nine Day

9 September 09


It’s triple 9 day… and will make a mark by writing something here.


9 is my favorite number, even though there’s no particular reason for that, just love it. The number is usually used by a striker in a soccer game; they are the so called “finisher”, which mean the decider. Most of the goal score is from the striker position, one of my idols is Ronaldo from Brazil, he has such a tremendous skill, a very skillful palyer, that scored a lots of goal.


In this life I much describe myself as the striker, and a decider. I just somehow and someway have a confidence in term of making a decision. Eventually I’ve got no evidence right now telling the story of my success and talent that been given by God to me. But I got a strong feeling I’m going to be a good one, not just in my life, but also in every area that God trusted me to. In a bigger picture, I want to be a person that makes a tremendous impact in my family, society, environment etc. Just like a striker that is a decider on the field, to take a team win by his goal.


In the past several weeks I’ve been trying hard to be a (more) faithful son to Him. Right now I’m in terrible situation; I’ve been struggle with things. But somehow I’m managed to get through each and everyday, without any real burden. And everyday I always saying to myself a positive things, “Erick today is going to be a great day”, “today something good will just happen”, “the day that you waiting for will eventually come, BY THIS DAY” the fact until now, nothing great happen to me, but I still having a faith that eventually will come. Right now my motto is God will never leave you, nor forsake you. Recently I just heard a sermon by Ps. Joel Osteen. It’s about a blessing from God that’s on the way, that is help is just in time, we just need to be ready to receive it, and the most important things is say it always. Every morning I practice it, say good thing that I want to happen (for sure also, by His will). It’s hurt honestly, if what you’re asking to happen delay by God. And every nite while praying looks like I’m complaining to God.


Since today is 09 09 09 I really expect something big will happen, something that will set me free, and all of the people involved in this mess. If it’s not happening today, there is still tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow….


So I’m learning to be more faithful and patience, I know what I’m capable of, moreover what God can do in my life… He is just Awesome, beyond Awesomeness.. Thank God..


-God doesn't create evil, evil is a result of what happen when man doesn't have God's Love present in his heart- Albert Einstein

Monday, August 24, 2009

"Quoting"

I'm Quoting this from my sister blog, I found it interesting, she has been some kind of anger to one of her friend, that act like the first quote, and if my sister insisting not to forgive or let it go, it will be the same..

Being a Christian not just about how many hours you put in prayers, reading bible, attending Christian conferences, church and put your days in to fasting if you do not have the character of Christ.

And somehow God replied:

"Look, if I never let you go through this event, you will end up the same. You can praise and read the bible everyday, but you are not showing my character, it will be useless"

God bless u friends.... ^^

J U D G E

I just want to share a bit here, I get this from last sermon by Ps. Allan Meyer.

In the old testament, we find that after Adam fell into sin, we seem look God as judgmental God, we have no privilege to have a Father and Son relationship like when Adam not fell into sin yet.

God Himself not comfortable with that kind situation, that's why He send he beloved Son, Jesus Christ, come down to earth and pay all of human beings debt on the Cross, and He said "It is finished"

From that moment our God is not a judgmental God anymore, He is our Father, and we have that privilege again to have Father-Son relationship with Him, but why sometimes we felt uncomfortable speaking about our Father, our God, our Savior. He is not a condemn God, He is God of Love, love that can't be measure by human, but surely we can demonstrate it.

This world in desperate need of love, the least we can do is share God's love, in every way that you can interpret. When you do this, u give a help for this world. Love is all we need right now, I'm not talking about romantic Love ^^ but Love, unconditional Love, friends it's not going to be easy, not at all. Once Mother Theresa says "If we can't love the person whom we see, how can we love God, whom we cannot see" I'm going to make this simple, "We love the God that we can't see, why it's hard to Love person that we can see"

Spread some sincerity Love and unconditional Love... I'm working on it also, let's begin from small steps, through your environment at office, business place, at home towards our maid, driver, neighbor... Money can't buy Love!!

Have a nice day all...

Monday, August 10, 2009

-By Far- Most exciting Moment in 2009

August 8th


I have to admit, that day is the most fun and awesome day for this year (so far). It has been a while for me, that I can have so much fun, with friends in Dufan (Indonesia only one theme park). The last time I visit was like more less 7 years!!! ago…. We laugh together, shout together and even cry together =(

I might say that is what I need in these moments, after 2 months far from social live and civilization; it’s the perfect gate away!!!




The day start really slow, I only slept for 6 hours, then I have to finish my office work for a while (Erick doing His office job at home, it’s a miracle) ^^ At 8 someone remind me that we have a ‘breakfast date’. The other night I was thought she was joking that she would like to have breakfast with me, so I kind of not prepare for everything. Right after Her text me I rush to take a shower and go the rendezvous (SinPa’sa) we’re having a nice and very delicious Jambi’s Noodle while waiting for David to pick us up (Special thanks to David that He willing to sacrifice to pick us from PIK to Karawaci, and later we found out that we should have join Yoshua, because he lives nearby; u’re awesome bro!!!)

The journey begin,

Right after David pick us (me and Liana) we straight went to Mery house and pick Manda near ancol. We gathered there around 11AM and it was crowded already. David (again) with His humble heart queuing for all of us for the ticket. We’re fortunately having some disc from the ticket. When we enter Dufan, it’s already 12PM and it’s lunch time!!! We’re having our lunch at McD.




After finish with the lunch we directly go for our first ride, everybody join except fro Yoshua and Roni. I tell you, that I’m having a super great time there. We really maximized our limited time there, playing from 12 till 8PM. It’s really a blessing for me that I still got cool and awesome friends, and they are a truly nice and decent man and woman. I can’t give thanks more for God allowed me to know them. Every expression show tired face, but also full of excitement and also happiness at the end. I felt that we’re like knowing each other for a long time, and I can say that that day is the first time (since I work in Karawang) I feel satisfied with live, I don’t want to end the day!!!


After a tiring day, all wet from the ride also from sweat we decide to go home, and having our last supper for Hilda and Rini. This is the sad part, where we have to let go our beloved friends, it’s tough but, we can’t be selfish. We’re having the dinner in Meri Lim’s restaurant, call ‘Oca’ it provide Japanese food. The dinner went well; we’re eating like crazy Hahhahahaha…. (or just me??)

22.00 PM. We just finished our dinner, now the time for say good bye, we’re praying for each other at that moment, especially for Hilda and Rini, they will be entering the next phase of their life, Getting married!!! Once again, it’s great and pleasure for me to know u, I believe this won’t be the end of everything, we still can get update from ‘Facebook’ or for Hilda we can still visit each other.. ^^ I’m praying all the best for both of you, u all will be an awesome mom and wives, may God give u wisdom for each and every day, and we all believers says Ameeeeenn !!!!! Going to miss u in Sunday School.

On Sunday I also got the other farewell… I’m going to miss Ashley and Aaron… they’re going back to USA.. =(