Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Older Brother and Younger Brother, By Ps. Mark Conner

Sunday 4th October 2009

As usually, wake up at 6 AM, and getting ready for church. I knew that today will be Ps. Mark Conner that bring up the sermon. I really never expected that it’s going to be beyond great, I mean, no offense I love all the pastor that brings sermon in JPCC, I love them all ^^

I’ll just get to the point, what Ps. Mark Conner talking about is really a revelation for me, the thought that I never imagine it before. I’ll start with Luke 15: 1-31, it says:

The Parable of the Lost Sheep

1Now the tax collectors and "sinners" were all gathering around to hear him. 2But the Pharisees and the teachers of the law muttered, "This man welcomes sinners and eats with them."
3Then Jesus told them this parable: 4"Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Does he not leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? 5And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders 6and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, 'Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.' 7I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent.

The Parable of the Lost Coin

8"Or suppose a woman has ten silver coins[a] and loses one. Does she not light a lamp, sweep the house and search carefully until she finds it? 9And when she finds it, she calls her friends and neighbors together and says, 'Rejoice with me; I have found my lost coin.' 10In the same way, I tell you, there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents."

The Parable of the Lost Son

11Jesus continued: "There was a man who had two sons. 12The younger one said to his father, 'Father, give me my share of the estate.' So he divided his property between them.

13"Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. 14After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. 15So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. 16He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.

17"When he came to his senses, he said, 'How many of my father's hired men have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! 18I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. 19I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired men.' 20So he got up and went to his father.
"But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.

21"The son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.[b]'

22"But the father said to his servants, 'Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. 23Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let's have a feast and celebrate. 24For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' So they began to celebrate.

25"Meanwhile, the older son was in the field. When he came near the house, he heard music and dancing. 26So he called one of the servants and asked him what was going on. 27'Your brother has come,' he replied, 'and your father has killed the fattened calf because he has him back safe and sound.'

28"The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father went out and pleaded with him. 29But he answered his father, 'Look! All these years I've been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends. 30But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for him!'

31" 'My son,' the father said, 'you are always with me, and everything I have is yours. 32But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' "

You’ll probably know this story, it might be the favorite one which tell about the lost, and be welcome by the father (in Heaven). I’m really excited and there’s many things to write down but don’t know where to start ^^ I’ll try my best to deliver it well to you.

In all three parables, there are similarities, “Lost – Found – Rejoice” but if you take your time and read it carefully there are actually one different, from the first and second parable, the master (the one that fell lost) is the one looking out, searching the lost one, but in the parable of the lost son, the lost himself that return to the master (father). This is one thing, you’ll find another thing… buckle up.. ^^

There is one interesting about the parable of the lost son (I’ll be focused in this one).
• The first scene is the ‘younger’ son asking his share from his father (this is considered so rude, when you asking your share while your father is still alive), then he left his father.
• The second scene is the ‘younger’ son spent up all of his money, in party committed sin, he have a lot of friends (FYI: it’s a common practice that if u have a lot of money, friends tend to come)
• The third scene he’s on the edge of desperation, even he need to work in a pig farm, feeding the pig, out of starvation he even not allowed to share the pig food. Guess what, he broke and have no friends, then he realize that he want to come home, being the servant of his father even have a better life.
• The fourth scene, on the way home, from far away, the father can see the ‘younger’ brother. The father run into him, hug him and kiss him full of compassionate , even he ask all the servant to bring some robe, ring and sandals for the ‘younger’ brother and even so the father held a party, a celebration for his ‘younger’ son. The ‘younger’ brother enters the house again.

This is the story of the ‘older’ brother:
• The first scene, he aware that the father gives his share to the ‘younger’ brother.
• The second scene will represent his life while the ‘younger’ brother flees away, and enjoying his life, with his way to the max. The ‘older’ brother in the other hand, work so hard, never complaint, obey his entire father asking for.
• The third scene, while he is working hard on the field, he heard some music, and be told that the ‘younger’ brother has return, and the Master throw a party, and kill the fattened calf for his ‘younger’ brother, remember this, that this ‘older’ brother is outside of house, and he so furious with his father and refuse to come in and join the party, but once again, the father came outside to talk to the ‘older’ brother, trying to persuade him to join the party, the story end here.

I’m 100% believe, if we watching movie, end it end like this, we would be so mad, and curious about the real end of this story, whether the ’older’ brother came in to he house again or not. We all will have the same question, and neither one of us can answer it; it left only Jesus that can answer or finish the story. There is something that God wanting us to know; here is the shocking part (for me).

In this parable, it should be represent something, ‘older’ brother represent Pharisee, and the teacher of the law; ‘younger’ brother represent sinners and tax collectors; Home represent heaven; and finally, father represent our beloved Father in heaven.

If we try to look in New Testament the entire ‘older’ brother is trying to judge people, even Jesus Himself. They think really hard how to interpret the law from the Old Testament, for example “what you can do and u can’t do on the Sabbath” they find to a conclusion that if you tied a knot wit only one hand, you’re not violating the Sabbath law, but if you’re using both hand, than you violating the law. (I’m not sure about this, I think this is just example, I’m totally trying to deliver what Ps. Mark Conner said ^^ )

There’re a lot of even where the ‘older’ brother complaining to Jesus, while He trying to tie a knot with 2 hands with the ‘younger’ brother. It’s really hurtful for me to say this, maybe that I’m one of the ‘older’ brother, maybe you, or someone you know. What is Jesus trying to say is, approach you ‘younger’ brother, than they will automatically follow you, in short Jesus show some love to them, en they turn themselves in, not in the other way (you Follow Jesus and then He’ll love you – NOT AT ALL!!!) Many times Jesus show to us, the He first loves us, never en ever he asked us to follow Him first, He love you anyway. One of the stories that suit this is story about Jesus meat Zacchaeus (Luke 19:1-10). Jesus did not ask him to directly change, Jesus having lunch first with him, and you know how the story goes.

Let’s back to the story, (this is just my opinion) its ok for us to live like the ’younger’ brother, exploiting something new, explore yourself even more (of course within direction and wisdom), we tend to live like the ‘older’ brother, saying, “hey I’m the one will enter the heaven, I do obey my God, I did everything according to His will” but guess what, the ‘older’ brother is the one outside the house!!! Isn’t shocking, what does it suppose to mean? When I heard that, it fell like thousands of knives flying into my heart!!

I’m certainly thing that we can’t take this literally. Jesus just wants to show us something, He might say this to the ‘older’ brother:

“My Son, you know that I love you all so much, I appreciate a lot that you knew Me, you did whatever I asked you to be, you are the one that know me more than anybody, and since that I’m already leaving the earth, and all I can depend on just the Holy Spirit that stay within you, so what I’m asking you to do is, just simply reach out for your younger brother, they need you to be by their side, to feel Me within your presence there. I would love to see both of you in my house, could you do that to Me”

Love,
Jesus Christ

This parable just want to teach us, that God really want us to reach out, find our own beloved brother (I say it never been easy) God gave all of the resources needed, compassion, strength, Holy Spirit, creativity, etc. But if we not carefully, it will lead us up the other way… So the choice is yours, I would like to say that Ps. Mark Conner words, is the best revelation that I got this year, I’m still waiting good things to happen this year, it’s already October now, but still having faith out of it. Have a nice day guys… Hope it bless you as well.

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Triple Nine Day

9 September 09


It’s triple 9 day… and will make a mark by writing something here.


9 is my favorite number, even though there’s no particular reason for that, just love it. The number is usually used by a striker in a soccer game; they are the so called “finisher”, which mean the decider. Most of the goal score is from the striker position, one of my idols is Ronaldo from Brazil, he has such a tremendous skill, a very skillful palyer, that scored a lots of goal.


In this life I much describe myself as the striker, and a decider. I just somehow and someway have a confidence in term of making a decision. Eventually I’ve got no evidence right now telling the story of my success and talent that been given by God to me. But I got a strong feeling I’m going to be a good one, not just in my life, but also in every area that God trusted me to. In a bigger picture, I want to be a person that makes a tremendous impact in my family, society, environment etc. Just like a striker that is a decider on the field, to take a team win by his goal.


In the past several weeks I’ve been trying hard to be a (more) faithful son to Him. Right now I’m in terrible situation; I’ve been struggle with things. But somehow I’m managed to get through each and everyday, without any real burden. And everyday I always saying to myself a positive things, “Erick today is going to be a great day”, “today something good will just happen”, “the day that you waiting for will eventually come, BY THIS DAY” the fact until now, nothing great happen to me, but I still having a faith that eventually will come. Right now my motto is God will never leave you, nor forsake you. Recently I just heard a sermon by Ps. Joel Osteen. It’s about a blessing from God that’s on the way, that is help is just in time, we just need to be ready to receive it, and the most important things is say it always. Every morning I practice it, say good thing that I want to happen (for sure also, by His will). It’s hurt honestly, if what you’re asking to happen delay by God. And every nite while praying looks like I’m complaining to God.


Since today is 09 09 09 I really expect something big will happen, something that will set me free, and all of the people involved in this mess. If it’s not happening today, there is still tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow….


So I’m learning to be more faithful and patience, I know what I’m capable of, moreover what God can do in my life… He is just Awesome, beyond Awesomeness.. Thank God..


-God doesn't create evil, evil is a result of what happen when man doesn't have God's Love present in his heart- Albert Einstein

Monday, August 24, 2009

"Quoting"

I'm Quoting this from my sister blog, I found it interesting, she has been some kind of anger to one of her friend, that act like the first quote, and if my sister insisting not to forgive or let it go, it will be the same..

Being a Christian not just about how many hours you put in prayers, reading bible, attending Christian conferences, church and put your days in to fasting if you do not have the character of Christ.

And somehow God replied:

"Look, if I never let you go through this event, you will end up the same. You can praise and read the bible everyday, but you are not showing my character, it will be useless"

God bless u friends.... ^^

J U D G E

I just want to share a bit here, I get this from last sermon by Ps. Allan Meyer.

In the old testament, we find that after Adam fell into sin, we seem look God as judgmental God, we have no privilege to have a Father and Son relationship like when Adam not fell into sin yet.

God Himself not comfortable with that kind situation, that's why He send he beloved Son, Jesus Christ, come down to earth and pay all of human beings debt on the Cross, and He said "It is finished"

From that moment our God is not a judgmental God anymore, He is our Father, and we have that privilege again to have Father-Son relationship with Him, but why sometimes we felt uncomfortable speaking about our Father, our God, our Savior. He is not a condemn God, He is God of Love, love that can't be measure by human, but surely we can demonstrate it.

This world in desperate need of love, the least we can do is share God's love, in every way that you can interpret. When you do this, u give a help for this world. Love is all we need right now, I'm not talking about romantic Love ^^ but Love, unconditional Love, friends it's not going to be easy, not at all. Once Mother Theresa says "If we can't love the person whom we see, how can we love God, whom we cannot see" I'm going to make this simple, "We love the God that we can't see, why it's hard to Love person that we can see"

Spread some sincerity Love and unconditional Love... I'm working on it also, let's begin from small steps, through your environment at office, business place, at home towards our maid, driver, neighbor... Money can't buy Love!!

Have a nice day all...

Monday, August 10, 2009

-By Far- Most exciting Moment in 2009

August 8th


I have to admit, that day is the most fun and awesome day for this year (so far). It has been a while for me, that I can have so much fun, with friends in Dufan (Indonesia only one theme park). The last time I visit was like more less 7 years!!! ago…. We laugh together, shout together and even cry together =(

I might say that is what I need in these moments, after 2 months far from social live and civilization; it’s the perfect gate away!!!




The day start really slow, I only slept for 6 hours, then I have to finish my office work for a while (Erick doing His office job at home, it’s a miracle) ^^ At 8 someone remind me that we have a ‘breakfast date’. The other night I was thought she was joking that she would like to have breakfast with me, so I kind of not prepare for everything. Right after Her text me I rush to take a shower and go the rendezvous (SinPa’sa) we’re having a nice and very delicious Jambi’s Noodle while waiting for David to pick us up (Special thanks to David that He willing to sacrifice to pick us from PIK to Karawaci, and later we found out that we should have join Yoshua, because he lives nearby; u’re awesome bro!!!)

The journey begin,

Right after David pick us (me and Liana) we straight went to Mery house and pick Manda near ancol. We gathered there around 11AM and it was crowded already. David (again) with His humble heart queuing for all of us for the ticket. We’re fortunately having some disc from the ticket. When we enter Dufan, it’s already 12PM and it’s lunch time!!! We’re having our lunch at McD.




After finish with the lunch we directly go for our first ride, everybody join except fro Yoshua and Roni. I tell you, that I’m having a super great time there. We really maximized our limited time there, playing from 12 till 8PM. It’s really a blessing for me that I still got cool and awesome friends, and they are a truly nice and decent man and woman. I can’t give thanks more for God allowed me to know them. Every expression show tired face, but also full of excitement and also happiness at the end. I felt that we’re like knowing each other for a long time, and I can say that that day is the first time (since I work in Karawang) I feel satisfied with live, I don’t want to end the day!!!


After a tiring day, all wet from the ride also from sweat we decide to go home, and having our last supper for Hilda and Rini. This is the sad part, where we have to let go our beloved friends, it’s tough but, we can’t be selfish. We’re having the dinner in Meri Lim’s restaurant, call ‘Oca’ it provide Japanese food. The dinner went well; we’re eating like crazy Hahhahahaha…. (or just me??)

22.00 PM. We just finished our dinner, now the time for say good bye, we’re praying for each other at that moment, especially for Hilda and Rini, they will be entering the next phase of their life, Getting married!!! Once again, it’s great and pleasure for me to know u, I believe this won’t be the end of everything, we still can get update from ‘Facebook’ or for Hilda we can still visit each other.. ^^ I’m praying all the best for both of you, u all will be an awesome mom and wives, may God give u wisdom for each and every day, and we all believers says Ameeeeenn !!!!! Going to miss u in Sunday School.

On Sunday I also got the other farewell… I’m going to miss Ashley and Aaron… they’re going back to USA.. =(

Monday, August 3, 2009

-End of July and Start of August-

It’s officially a month now stay in Karawang… working here and be a totally (still) strangers…

But I thanked God every weekend I still go back to a civilization, met my friend, and family.

Just yesterday hearing a shocking news, that one of my colleague is having interview today, he even only 5 months here, and he already to think to get away from here (same with me here) but practically for a different reason (sort of the same but they’re different)

Right now my feeling and thought is still the same, I can’t get along here I just don’t know why it just can’t happen. Maybe some of you that knew me would say there’s nothing wrong with me, some of u just “so so” know me, might say that I’m a quiet or talk less person. In fact I’m not at all I’m quiet talkative if I found a person that share same thoughts, etc….

in contrary in the past few weeks ago, I’ve been blessed a lot by Ps. Kong Hee, He truly a man of God (not mention also my Ps. In JPCC, I love u all and u’re awesome!!! Hahaahaha )I’ve been heard from Him how u can relate with ur live, church is only one thing, but the purpose of what we all made in this world is only one, glorify His name, by what?? By showing to them how good God is, how He have a full compassion an endless love no matter what and who we are, because basically ‘we’ all is His image. I realize my self that we can be like a superman in our own church, and felt no body can beat us, and to all the non believer we felt superior than them, we sometimes judges them, condemn them, but only in Sunday…. In the other day?? Mon – Sat we are the loser; we don’t even know how to react in this world we sometime hiding in our very comfort zone just to wait until Sunday come again or worst we act like them in the weekdays. Ironic huh?? I’m not saying this because of im perfect enough or whatsoever, I’m still learning, matter of fact I just learn, it will not be easy but that is the purpose that God put on us, I like the slogan that Giordano use, we should make this world “world without stranger” love one another like you love ur own God.

When we can make an impact in the society, or Ps. Kong Hee said 2nd zone/world, 1st world is our church, which we only live in there like 2-5 hours a day. What we live most is in this 2nd world, where we spent almost all of our time, like school, business, market, entertainment , etc we need to do something there, after we got a protection and blessing and strength from the 1st place we apply it in this world. After we success in this part we can be taken to the 3rd world, which all the elite live, politician , great and influence business man, and all great people that have influence on this world (literally) When we got there, and can make an influence there, we can change the world!!! It’s awesome to know it, that we need to be really excellent to be draw near to this 3rd world, God has planted an awesome seed into all of use, with our own uniqueness so, why don’t we gave it all back to Him.

And also I learn about “What to do ,when you don’t know what to do”, I forgot the detail (I’m not writing it down because I’m so amazed with Ps. Kong Hee hahaahahah) at the Sunday services. I’ll do my best to write it down, I’m also looking forward to find the sermon’s copy ^^ , the point that I remember is, Stand before God, focus on God’s promises not your problem, wait for Holy Spirit – (I’ll update as soon as I get the detail)

So what I’m struggling rite now is should I stay here, where all of my body and mind is not in here anymore, every night I’m shout out… “GOD PLEASE GET ME OUTTA HERE” still having faith that “rancangan-Mu adalah rancangan yang indah,bukanlah rancangan yang jahat” I’m willing to hold His promises. (while searching for alternatives of course…hahaahaha)

I miss my friends a lot, I miss my ex-colleague there I miss every single second that I spent with them, in good and bad moment.




I miss joking with Debby, sometimes She got to serious and I’m like nothing to do en go in her place start to make noise there, gossiping talking about or lovely BF and the company … missing a lot that time ^^



Miss also chat with Laidy, if I feel hungry his place is surely number one come out in my mind, cause he always keep a lot of food there, he’s kind of stockiest for me.. hahhahha miss u bro ^^

For my neighbor also, I miss her a lot while she get mad to supplier, talking and joking with driver (hahaahhaaha), I miss her spirit that make me amaze, and did make me think for a moment ‘should I leave SM’ (turns out to be right hahahaaha…) Her wisdom, wise word, determination and all great stuff that a future mom have had… really nice to know you and looking forward to see u,

I miss each and every person there, even though we’re not close enough but still it’s nice to have friends at the same age, same level etc

I miss ci Catrin with all Her Baganesse food, and her so ‘quite’ daughter (maybe just in front of me hahahahha) Miss talking with her also, even She’s so busy back then but I can get some good advise and have a quite nice conversation with her…


I MISS EVERYTHING THErE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Miss Jakarta, Miss KArawaci, Miss Supermall, Miss SMS, Miss my old friends’ en etc.. SUPER BIG TIME!!!

I guess I need stop here, or I’ll even get more emotional…. ><

I need extra strength and answer for my entire question; I’ll learn to focus on His promises..

Thanks to one of my friends in TGR, who never tired to support me and chat with me during the office hour.. ahhaahhaaha

Note: The first part I write at 31th July and the 2nd part just now, 3rd August. Today is her birthday and I’m praying all the best for her carrier, education, family, friends and her health, wishing also that all of her dream come true, and mine.. ^^

Monday, July 13, 2009

Almost a month, still in Misery ^^

13th July

I’m heading to one month here, still having the home sick here…. Hikz hikz =(

I’m start to asking myself, is there something wrong with me? Seriously, I never felt like this before, I mean I’m 26 years old, I should have the ability to adapt fast, when I left alone in Bandung, it just took 1-2 months to get used to it, in that period it not as hard as this one, wish that everyday is Friday. Right now, I love the word TGIF; cause it time for me to get back to Jakarta!! YEaaaayyy!!

2 weeks ago, I’m having movie marathon, I watch Transformer then Ice Age 3, the movie is worth to watch, and even in that day I just having the JPCC Kids Anniversary and Rev Dr A.R Bernard seminar in the morning. All of he event went well, the preach was great, the rehearsal went well, the anniversary also went perfect, the performance that I’m taking part in was awesome, it’s my second time and it feel good. There some small part in my heart and mind that I would love to try to become an actor haahhhahaha… looking forward to make it happen LOL

JPCC Kids Anniversary

On Sunday, JPCC held their 10th anniversary in Ritz Carlton Ballroom, I took the first service and overall it went awesome, I’m amazed by what God can do, it starts with just 4 people, and in one decade it became almost +/- 5000 people. I believe that God put more ad bigger vision to JPCC, and as the member of the church we have to support it, we will not just be a regular member, but we also become an integral part of JPCC, the value that been taught we need to implement it, otherwise it will not make any impact in the society. I still need a lot of improvement to do, to make a better me and for the sake of His kingdom.. aahahahhah (sounds cliché)

Last Saturday I having lunch with Lily and San-san,to celebrate Lily’s belated birthday, we’re having lunch at Yakoya BBD tower, when we arrive there we all like people that haven’t eat for days.. hahahhah we very enjoying the lunch, catch up each other, talking bout everything, it really nice to hear from them again, that really the thing that I need, a real conversation with friends (which in almost a week, it’s really difficult to me to find one) after having lunch, which we ate till very very very full, and we find it hard to walk… LOL we went to Puri Mall, to catch a movie, we watch Ice Age 3 in 3D (I watch the movie again, but still laughing hard) after that Lily need to go home earlier, before that I ask them to try Sour Sally, this is what I found unbelievable, that they don’t know what sour sally is… ckckckkckckc…. I guess they live too long in Tangerang.. hahahaha….

Lily, San2 en Me @ Yakoya

I have my first service again, after 3 weeks absent (in Upper Room) the head pastors was still in Hillsong Conference and we’ve been bless by Jony Herjawan, He talk about vision, in correlation with JPCC 10th Anniversary the other week, it’s really a good sermon, even though it’s bit heavy for first service. I learn that vision leak and vanish, so we need to be constantly talk about it, think about it and pursue it with all our heart and mind, He use an F1 racing as the analogy that the point was the grand vision, grand destination, we need to be constantly re-charge, refuel so we can end the race in first position ^^ and also I love this quote “bad decision is just the second best, it’s better than have no decision at all, because when u not decide anything, time will take the decision for you, and for your information, time is evil” so what we can do is to make the other decision to the best one, we can’t turn back time to change it, and never ignore it, till the time take privilege make your decision, and also the further you went to wrong direction, that distance also you need toward the correct decision, there’s no instant way to achieve it.

Looking forward to see u girl

After services, I went with Yusly to eat bakmie ‘noban’ (noodle that cost you 20k) hahahaha.. I’m really enjoying my weekend, having the food that good from my fave restaurant and also my mom (thanks mom) That Sunday also my first time serving Sunday School, after 3 weeks absent, I met 2 wonderful boy and girls, they’re bro and sis, the older one called Austin, and his young sister called Abigail. They came from abroad, I’m not sure where, but other teacher said they came from USA, that’s explain that they talk English hahahahah… the funny thing that the sister is more playful, she laugh with me without whining “daddy, daddy, I want to see my Daddy” it’s kind of tough for me, facing the tantrum that kids throwing at you, but the other side I’m enjoying it, we manage to convince Austin to stay until their father finished the service. I mean come on, 3 weeks absent and god gave me that challenge hahahhaaha.. but really I miss the kids there, I’m also going to miss some of them, cause they graduating to the higher class, good for them ^^
Miss all of you..!!


And today back to reality again.. =(
Looking forward to this week long weekend… hahahaa…..