-End of July and Start of August-

It’s officially a month now stay in Karawang… working here and be a totally (still) strangers…

But I thanked God every weekend I still go back to a civilization, met my friend, and family.

Just yesterday hearing a shocking news, that one of my colleague is having interview today, he even only 5 months here, and he already to think to get away from here (same with me here) but practically for a different reason (sort of the same but they’re different)

Right now my feeling and thought is still the same, I can’t get along here I just don’t know why it just can’t happen. Maybe some of you that knew me would say there’s nothing wrong with me, some of u just “so so” know me, might say that I’m a quiet or talk less person. In fact I’m not at all I’m quiet talkative if I found a person that share same thoughts, etc….

in contrary in the past few weeks ago, I’ve been blessed a lot by Ps. Kong Hee, He truly a man of God (not mention also my Ps. In JPCC, I love u all and u’re awesome!!! Hahaahaha )I’ve been heard from Him how u can relate with ur live, church is only one thing, but the purpose of what we all made in this world is only one, glorify His name, by what?? By showing to them how good God is, how He have a full compassion an endless love no matter what and who we are, because basically ‘we’ all is His image. I realize my self that we can be like a superman in our own church, and felt no body can beat us, and to all the non believer we felt superior than them, we sometimes judges them, condemn them, but only in Sunday…. In the other day?? Mon – Sat we are the loser; we don’t even know how to react in this world we sometime hiding in our very comfort zone just to wait until Sunday come again or worst we act like them in the weekdays. Ironic huh?? I’m not saying this because of im perfect enough or whatsoever, I’m still learning, matter of fact I just learn, it will not be easy but that is the purpose that God put on us, I like the slogan that Giordano use, we should make this world “world without stranger” love one another like you love ur own God.

When we can make an impact in the society, or Ps. Kong Hee said 2^nd zone/world, 1st world is our church, which we only live in there like 2-5 hours a day. What we live most is in this 2^nd world, where we spent almost all of our time, like school, business, market, entertainment , etc we need to do something there, after we got a protection and blessing and strength from the 1^st place we apply it in this world. After we success in this part we can be taken to the 3^rd world, which all the elite live, politician , great and influence business man, and all great people that have influence on this world (literally) When we got there, and can make an influence there, we can change the world!!! It’s awesome to know it, that we need to be really excellent to be draw near to this 3^rd world, God has planted an awesome seed into all of use, with our own uniqueness so, why don’t we gave it all back to Him.

And also I learn about “What to do ,when you don’t know what to do”, I forgot the detail (I’m not writing it down because I’m so amazed with Ps. Kong Hee hahaahahah) at the Sunday services. I’ll do my best to write it down, I’m also looking forward to find the sermon’s copy ^^ , the point that I remember is, Stand before God, focus on God’s promises not your problem, wait for Holy Spirit – (I’ll update as soon as I get the detail)

So what I’m struggling rite now is should I stay here, where all of my body and mind is not in here anymore, every night I’m shout out… “GOD PLEASE GET ME OUTTA HERE” still having faith that “rancangan-Mu adalah rancangan yang indah,bukanlah rancangan yang jahat” I’m willing to hold His promises. (while searching for alternatives of course…hahaahaha)

I miss my friends a lot, I miss my ex-colleague there I miss every single second that I spent with them, in good and bad moment.

I miss joking with Debby, sometimes She got to serious and I’m like nothing to do en go in her place start to make noise there, gossiping talking about or lovely BF and the company … missing a lot that time ^^

Miss also chat with Laidy, if I feel hungry his place is surely number one come out in my mind, cause he always keep a lot of food there, he’s kind of stockiest for me.. hahhahha miss u bro ^^

For my neighbor also, I miss her a lot while she get mad to supplier, talking and joking with driver (hahaahhaaha), I miss her spirit that make me amaze, and did make me think for a moment ‘should I leave SM’ (turns out to be right hahahaaha…) Her wisdom, wise word, determination and all great stuff that a future mom have had… really nice to know you and looking forward to see u,

I miss each and every person there, even though we’re not close enough but still it’s nice to have friends at the same age, same level etc

I miss ci Catrin with all Her Baganesse food, and her so ‘quite’ daughter (maybe just in front of me hahahahha) Miss talking with her also, even She’s so busy back then but I can get some good advise and have a quite nice conversation with her…

I MISS EVERYTHING THErE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Miss Jakarta, Miss KArawaci, Miss Supermall, Miss SMS, Miss my old friends’ en etc.. SUPER BIG TIME!!!

I guess I need stop here, or I’ll even get more emotional…. ><

I need extra strength and answer for my entire question; I’ll learn to focus on His promises..

Thanks to one of my friends in TGR, who never tired to support me and chat with me during the office hour.. ahhaahhaaha

Note: The first part I write at 31th July and the 2^nd part just now, 3^rd August. Today is her birthday and I’m praying all the best for her carrier, education, family, friends and her health, wishing also that all of her dream come true, and mine.. ^^

Almost a month, still in Misery ^^

13th July

I’m heading to one month here, still having the home sick here…. Hikz hikz =(

I’m start to asking myself, is there something wrong with me? Seriously, I never felt like this before, I mean I’m 26 years old, I should have the ability to adapt fast, when I left alone in Bandung, it just took 1-2 months to get used to it, in that period it not as hard as this one, wish that everyday is Friday. Right now, I love the word TGIF; cause it time for me to get back to Jakarta!! YEaaaayyy!!

2 weeks ago, I’m having movie marathon, I watch Transformer then Ice Age 3, the movie is worth to watch, and even in that day I just having the JPCC Kids Anniversary and Rev Dr A.R Bernard seminar in the morning. All of he event went well, the preach was great, the rehearsal went well, the anniversary also went perfect, the performance that I’m taking part in was awesome, it’s my second time and it feel good. There some small part in my heart and mind that I would love to try to become an actor haahhhahaha… looking forward to make it happen LOL

JPCC Kids Anniversary

On Sunday, JPCC held their 10th anniversary in Ritz Carlton Ballroom, I took the first service and overall it went awesome, I’m amazed by what God can do, it starts with just 4 people, and in one decade it became almost +/- 5000 people. I believe that God put more ad bigger vision to JPCC, and as the member of the church we have to support it, we will not just be a regular member, but we also become an integral part of JPCC, the value that been taught we need to implement it, otherwise it will not make any impact in the society. I still need a lot of improvement to do, to make a better me and for the sake of His kingdom.. aahahahhah (sounds cliché)

Last Saturday I having lunch with Lily and San-san,to celebrate Lily’s belated birthday, we’re having lunch at Yakoya BBD tower, when we arrive there we all like people that haven’t eat for days.. hahahhah we very enjoying the lunch, catch up each other, talking bout everything, it really nice to hear from them again, that really the thing that I need, a real conversation with friends (which in almost a week, it’s really difficult to me to find one) after having lunch, which we ate till very very very full, and we find it hard to walk… LOL we went to Puri Mall, to catch a movie, we watch Ice Age 3 in 3D (I watch the movie again, but still laughing hard) after that Lily need to go home earlier, before that I ask them to try Sour Sally, this is what I found unbelievable, that they don’t know what sour sally is… ckckckkckckc…. I guess they live too long in Tangerang.. hahahaha….

Lily, San2 en Me @ Yakoya

I have my first service again, after 3 weeks absent (in Upper Room) the head pastors was still in Hillsong Conference and we’ve been bless by Jony Herjawan, He talk about vision, in correlation with JPCC 10th Anniversary the other week, it’s really a good sermon, even though it’s bit heavy for first service. I learn that vision leak and vanish, so we need to be constantly talk about it, think about it and pursue it with all our heart and mind, He use an F1 racing as the analogy that the point was the grand vision, grand destination, we need to be constantly re-charge, refuel so we can end the race in first position ^^ and also I love this quote “bad decision is just the second best, it’s better than have no decision at all, because when u not decide anything, time will take the decision for you, and for your information, time is evil” so what we can do is to make the other decision to the best one, we can’t turn back time to change it, and never ignore it, till the time take privilege make your decision, and also the further you went to wrong direction, that distance also you need toward the correct decision, there’s no instant way to achieve it.

Looking forward to see u girl

After services, I went with Yusly to eat bakmie ‘noban’ (noodle that cost you 20k) hahahaha.. I’m really enjoying my weekend, having the food that good from my fave restaurant and also my mom (thanks mom) That Sunday also my first time serving Sunday School, after 3 weeks absent, I met 2 wonderful boy and girls, they’re bro and sis, the older one called Austin, and his young sister called Abigail. They came from abroad, I’m not sure where, but other teacher said they came from USA, that’s explain that they talk English hahahahah… the funny thing that the sister is more playful, she laugh with me without whining “daddy, daddy, I want to see my Daddy” it’s kind of tough for me, facing the tantrum that kids throwing at you, but the other side I’m enjoying it, we manage to convince Austin to stay until their father finished the service. I mean come on, 3 weeks absent and god gave me that challenge hahahhaaha.. but really I miss the kids there, I’m also going to miss some of them, cause they graduating to the higher class, good for them ^^

Miss all of you..!!

And today back to reality again.. =(
Looking forward to this week long weekend… hahahaa…..

- First Weekend - 27th June 2009

Back again in Karawang,

Last Friday it was the most horrifying day in my life, 5 hours trip from Karawang to Karawaci!!!! I’m thinking of another alternative of transport, maybe I’ll go with train (still gathering the information) it’s kinda frustrating if I have to go through it every Friday, it mean no more Friday night movie =(

-With my partner-

Above all, and despite the traffic ‘horror’ it turns out good even awesome on Saturday, my best friend held their wedding party at Balai Samudra. It turn out I’ve been pick as His best man (walk on the aisle with the 4 bride’s maid) met a lot of old friends from college, just enjoying the party almost until midnight. It was really an exhausting day but also quite astonishing day ^^ I’m really happy for both of you. After the party, we (Danny en Yusly) wen to Pecenongan , buying martabak, and you know what, we spent nearly 100k heheheheh….. it’s already late at nite ( 1.00AM) we decide to slept over in Sheraton (the room available because of one of Mike friends can’t come to the party)

-All of Us, with the Mr & Ms Widjaja-

On Sunday, we woke up at 9.00AM, going down for breakfast, and you guess what, we need to waiting list for the breakfast!!! So we decided to eat outside than go do Dyke new ‘home’ . We’re talking for almost an hour, about the party yesterday ^^

-With the Indonesia 'GODDESS'-

After checking out from the Hotel, I straight go to JPCC, going to have a rehearsal for the celebration, I’ve been absent from the church for 2 weeks. The rehearsal went quite well, I have a new ‘Lala’ and we practicing for 2 round than went home. It’s quite a day, still felt tired from the party, went home , pack stuff then go back to Karawang, my Mom drive me there (cause I have to bring a lot of furniture)

Ashley, She never want to take a picture with me =(

Beside the party, there are a lot of things happen. Like one of my friend decide to end His single status, still ongoing process and hoping that we all can get the results by this week, Good Luck bro..!!!

And terrible things also happen, I just found out a truth, trust me truth is not always good, in fact it hurts me a lot, almost stressed out, and because of that I can’t slept well. I wish to have the solution of this ‘gigantic’ problem, asking for a divine strength for this matter seriously it’s frustrated all of us (Family)I’m praying that may God intervene this immediately (Please…)

I’m also praying for my sister, hoping God gave a strength for Her, to get through everything there, I know it’s not easy, but I’ll be t your back.. ^^ Love U and Miss U a lot!!!

Friday 26th June 2009,

It’s already my third day in Karawang, the feeling was mixed up, between happy and sad (home sick). This is the whole new life for me, living far (again) from my family. I’m thinking, is this the life I want to live, is it going to make a better of me? But one thing for sure, that changes always make u uncomfortable (that’s what I felt right now) Positive side is I’m getting out from my comfort zone. I need a lot of courage and ‘divine’ strength to adapt here, and my life afterwards (I’m alone here, literally) I miss my friends, college friend, church friend, my ex-co-workers at Sinar Mas (Miss U Guys A LOT LOL).

3 days working here, I’m exited about the entire new role that I have, it’s very interesting. Met the whole new people here, really need to ADJUST asap, if not, I’m might thinking back to Jakarta =) I don’t want to talk much about here, cause it make me pause a lot, and I’ve been thinking for more than 10 minutes to go on with this writing, I felt depress and sad (home sick), so lets talk other stuff, when I felt strong enough (apa coba) to write about my situation here I’ll post it in the future (hoping ASAP).

So, today I will go back to Jakarta Yeaaayy!!! Have a lot of things to do, I’m actually full booked until next week (sombongnya) =p Right after I arrive at Jakarta, I’m going straight to watch a movie that people has been waiting for some time “Transformer 2 : The Revenge of the Fallen” it’s going to be acool and nice movie, some of my friends had commented already and they all agree that this is a great movie that worth to be watch (at Premiere) I will go home maybe nearly midnight… sighhhh!!!



Tomorrow I will be starting from morning (till dawn) help my best friend wedding party; it’s going to be an awesome yet exhausted day….. ^^ - in this case I hope that I can meet someone there (someone that I really expected to come; finger crossed)

On Sunday 29th June 2009, this is going to be a looooooooooong day, (maybe) wil start the first service at 7.30AM, have to come earlier because of the ‘car free’ day and the annoying things that I won’t last until 7.00PM GGrrrrr…!!! Attend 2nd service for Little Heaven (miss them cause I was absent last week) break ‘till 2.00PM and then starts for the last practice for the ‘act’ for JPCC Kids Birthday Celebration, tan maybe will go straight to Karawang again…. (think about those schedule really tiring) =( but show must go on……..

C U again whenever I’m posting again ^^

PS: “ Your Words create your World”

UPDATE = the ticket for Transformer 2 was already sold out!!! So no movies for this week =(

- Goin 26 -

Goin 26
It’s a weird birthday for me, in ne side thank God I got a new job and the sad part is, there’s nobody here know it’s my birthday… sucks!!!

But all of my good friends have congratulate me, that’s make my day even better ^^

First at 00.30AM I got called from someone that just married she was the first person that say Happy Birthday to me, plus additional from Ashley, it was just a great to hear from Her.

It’s my first day here, and everything went quiet well, I realize that it’s almost the same where you work, there’s still politics and other stuff.

The one is lacking from today is phone call or SMS from my sister, she usually remember this day ^^

It almost 5 now, I need to go on time cause I’m having my first bike here..
One thing, thank guys for the early present that u gave to me, it’s so awesome, till make me speechless, I love it very much and it’s the thing that I’ve been wanted, so millions of thanks!!!

I’ll write more tomorrow

Love u guys, and thank God for this day, even without a cake and people I knew =)

-My Last Day- (sweet memories)

Today would be my last day (in APP) ……

I’ll take a flash back a bit, I just got a new job since early June, it’s was really a tough decision, but it have to be made, and I thing that I make a good one, I’m leaving to challenge myself, get out from my comfort zone and step ahead, which I believe that I can’t get it from here. It’s kind of frustrated for past few months behind, I kept saying to God, “please find me another job” He seems answer me asap ^^ despite of all things I’ve been grateful given opportunity to serve in such a BIG company. So the point is, I get a better opportunity and I willing to take the risk and all of the consequences.

It’s been almost 2 years that I serve APP, I learn a lot of things here, working with truly genuine professionals. Never regret every moment and the job that I took here. Having a great relationship with many of awesome and great friends, there’s ups and downs but it’s all worth. Gain a huge of experience from an experience people.

I would like to give my gratitude to the ‘BIG’ boss, which gave me the opportunity here, it’s been an honor to work under your leadership. Best wishes for your family and kept do great things ahead for ur company. ^^

Next thanks to my first mentor, ko Andre, I know that we’ve been through some rough patches but hope it have been forget already, and head for a long friendship, I always have a full respect of you, learn a huge thing from you, a great leader in my point of view. It’s really an honor (again) to work under ur supervision, u always take a good care of me, having much fun back there, playing soccer together (even lost in first tournament ^^) share same favorite club (long live MAN UNITED!!) Thanks once again, my best wishes for your family, specially ur awesome twins (I never had a chance to met them, but hope sometime in future I will) God Bless…

Next for my second mentor, Ms. Catrina Kho ^^. Ci it’s been a truly great year with you, totally a different leadership, and yet learn a lot of things from you. Been a great friend also, thanks for sharing your life and family to me. I don’t know what do you thing about me, but hoping that I’m not disappointed you that much, and I’m sorry for all of my mistake that I’ve made, every single word that I might accidentally said everything deh pokoknya he2x. I hope that we can still be friend, I’ve been putting a lot of respect to you, you are a truly professionals and have a great personality. And you will kept rock there, people will look unto you. Just don’t give a damn with what people said about you, have faith with your ability u’re doing great (once again) my best wishes for your family, u’re a great wife and mom. God Bless ^^

Me & The Angels (-1) ^^

First of all, special thanks to Ike K Hermanto, thanks for the lessons that you taught me, u give me everything, that you knew (ga pernah pelit!!) thanks for the first lunch that we had together (g masih inget banget kita makan di Seroja ^^ ) thanks to be a great friend to me, being nice to me and etc. I’m sorry that I can’t attend you wedding, hopefully you’ll come to mine ^^ I’m really proud for what you achieve there, truly inspirational for me, ur determination, dedication and perseverance THUMBS UP!! I really learnt a lot from you (wish that I have a half of you) LOL .Best wishes for u and family, keep rocking there ^^

For Lio, Debby and Adit, I know what you all felt rite now (sok tau ya g) just kept do ur awesome job, thanks for being nice to me there, and hope that in future it remain the same.

Lio: jangan lembur2 terus, perhatiin suami u !!! heuhuehheu

Me and Debby Susanto

Debby: u’ll find great things shortly (have faith!!) getting married soon, have an awesome family!!

Me and Adit

Adit : wish u all the best bro!! speechless g (too cool to be true) =p

EMona : Wishing u all the abundant blessing for your second son (bener kan ya ^^)

Me & Ms.Kurniawan

Maureen : Don’t miss me ^^ Sorry that i left you with a lot of things hahahahha.....

Me & Didi

Didi : Thanks for sharing ur life with me, and never give up, when we met again, I’m hoping that I can met ur first child ^^ u're an awesome wife and soon to be Mom

Januar : ko thanks for all the advice and being nice with me, it mean a lot for me. God bless ur family

Ci Anggie : Thanks for all the extra work that u’ve done for me, from the beginning till the end of my career there ^^

Me & Laidy Budiman ^^

Laidy : Thanks for everything that you’ve done to me, for the meals that’s been provide, patience with me and sharing ur life I guess… jangan sombong2 en sorry that I left u first hahahahhah….. something good is laying ahead of you, u got to reach it have FAITH!!!

Suhartini aka San2 : Thanks to be a good host in IK Tangerang, it’s nice to met you and know you, sabar2 ya, start to fight for things, jangan diem aja, speak out ur mind!!! Take Care ^^

Lily Y : Makasih juga ya bu, dah mau menerima daku di IK TGR dengan baik dan benar hueheuheueh, jaga baik2 San2 ya, jangan lupa dikasi makan en dimandiin, pokoknya dirawat dengan baik dhe ^^

Me & The Neighbor

Fung2 : My beloved neighbor ^^ thanks for all the nasi ulam that u ever provide it to me, it’s priceless hahahaahha…

For all of people that I know there, sorry can’t mention one by one. Just wanth to say thanks to being my friend, it’s been my pleasure that u all have come into my life, really it’s been an honor. Sorry kalo ada kata2 or perbuatan yang ga berkenan, baik yang disengaja maupun tidak, still sorry.

Above all, thanks you guys, for an awesome (almost) 2 years serving APP, without u there, I might not survive that long ^^ . U guys just awesome to be missed, but what can I said, I’ll miss u all BIGGGGGGG Time, u’re all the reason that I (might) a second thought.

Never said goodbye cause we’ll be sure met again, and still be friends ^^

Love u all… and Good Luck + God Bless U all

Created: On 18^th June 2009, at 2:27 AM