"The Journal"

This is My 2010 Theme ^^

2010-01-01T05:06:00.000-08:00

Haven't Met You Yet - Michael Buble

I'm Not Surprised
Not Everything Lasts
Have Broken My Heart So Many Times,
I Stopped Keepin Track.

Talk Myself In
I Talk Myself Out
I Get All Worked Up
Then I Let Myself Down.

I Tried So Very Hard Not To Lose It
I Came Up With A Million Excuses
I Thought I Thought Of Every Possibility

And I Now Someday That It'll All Turn Out
You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid That I'll Give So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven't Met You Yet
Mmmmm ....

I Might Have To Wait
I'll Never Give Up
I Guess It's Half Time
And The Other Half's Luck

Wherever You Are
Whenever It's Right
You Come Out Of Nowhere And Into My Life
And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Baby Your Love Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Possibility
Hmmmmm ......

And Somehow I Know That Will All Turn Out
And You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid I'll Give So Much More Than I Get
I Just Haven't Met You Yet

They Say All's Fair
And In Love And War
But I Won't Need To Fight It
We'll Get It By It ??
To Be United

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing
And Being In Your Life Is Gonna Change Me
And Now I Can See Every Single Possibility
Hmmm .....

And Someday I Know It'll All Turn Out
And I'll Work To Work It Out
Promise You Kid I'll Give More Than I Get
Than I Get Than I Get than I Get

Oh You Know It Will All Turn Out
And You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid To Give So Much More Than I Get
Yeah I Just Haven't Met You Yet

I Just Haven't Met You Yet
Oh Promise You Kid
To Give So Much More Than I Get
I Said Love Love Love Love Love Love Love .....
I Just Haven't Met You Yet
Love Love Love .....
I Just Haven't Met You Yet

PS: Focus on the lyrics that I bold, I know this will make a bias!! Hahahaha.....
I Really love this songs, specially Buble, He got a great voice!!

NEW YEAR Greetings!!!

2009-12-31T05:45:00.000-08:00

There's a lot of things to write, I would like to write some New Year greetings to all of my Fam, Friends , Loved ones, let get started :

First of all for JC :

Thanks for wonderful year, tough one, but i manage to survive, with ur help of course. I can't imagine live without you, sorry for being a bit unfaithful, and thanks again to always have a faith in me, u're my best friend, God, Father, Teacher EVER!!! no one compare to u. I really hope that next year we will have more relationship, gettin closer to you and gain more wisdom en knowledge from you. Happy New year!!!

To My Family:

Thanks to my Mom, for being the best mom ever, support me in all of the situation I got, sorry for let u down sometimes but still u have faith in me. I would like to have more intimate relationship with u, en hope 2010 will bring better things for this house.

Thanks to my dad, even we rarely communication, but i believe every words is worth it, i'm looking forward for a better year en better relationship with u, thanks for everything, i wish u a awesome year.

Thanks to my sister, thanks for being an awesome sister for me through out 2009, there'sups en down but u still be there for me, I miss U A LOT!!! I wish u a wonderful and fruitful year in 2010, en everything will gettin even better en better!!

Thanks for my brother, i really looking forward for 2010,i would like to have a better relationship with u, not just being a good brother 4 u, but also a friend that u can talk en share to, i wishing u a brighter year!! learn from mistake en don't fall on the same spot again!! Love u all!!!!

Thanks to my grandpa en grandma, i'm wishing u a great year ahead, God gave good health en much pleasure live ahead!! Love u too!!!

This for my cousin Willy : Happy new year too bro... thanks also being a great family en friend to me, i'm also inspired by ur determination ,passion of Christ, through every word ur said or type on ur blog, it's such a blessing 4 me en i believe all of ur friends there. Keep rise up to the next level bro!!! Can't wait for may 2010 ^^ Have a blast day!!!!

For My Uncle : I have no real words to describe this, I would like to thanks for everything that u did in this family, it's such a blessing to have an uncle like you, we might not have been close enough, but i'm looking forward to get to know each other.I'm personally would like to have a big bro, en I guess u're the closest one ^^ .Personally i would like to thanks a ton for the assistance u gave to me, it's really priceless, the lesson that u gave, it's just overwhelmed. Wishing u a great year ahead, I believe God will bless u even more, Happy New Year!!!

All My Auntie, Uncle, Cousin,Nephew, Niece ETC: Have a wonderful year Ahead!! Kept expecting things to come, that God will never leave nor forsake u!!! He have a great plan for all of you, u're destined for GREAT!!

For My Friends:

Agnes Dyke : Thanks for being a good friend of mine, u done great, help me a lot. we might not talk much, but I believe our friendship will last forever.Looking forward to see ur baby, i'm gonna be a proud uncle!! Heheheehehe.... Have a blast year!!

Yusly Leonando : Thanks Bro for everything, support me in a good en bad situation, advise me with ur words, it's such a blessing to have you, Looking forward to have a better one in 2010. Happy New Year!!! Hope u got everything u want en desire, keep love God, that's the key!!

Danny Tan : Thanks bro, for ur help.Without u, I cant really tell where I am now. Thanks for the patience for me. Hope a blast year, gettin married en success in everything u plan!! Happy New Year bro!!

Hana A Sutedja : I hope I write ur name correctly.. ^^ Thanks to being such a good listener foe all my whining through out the year, thanks to support all my decision, en being faithful for me... i can even recall anyone better that u, it's really priceless have friends like you, and also thanks to share ur life with me wishing u a blast en awesome year ahead!!!!u ROCKS!!! Happy New Year!!!

Sasa: Thanks Girls for everything, for ur ears, heart en mind. That u spare it with me. I will not walked this far if it's not because of you, also thanks to share ur life with me. Thanks for accompanying me to hospital, it's really blessing to have a friend like u.I really wish u all a happy new year!! Have a blast year!!

San2 : Thanks for being my faithfully friends in Google Talk, it really help me a lot to killing time, it's a honor to know u, have u as my friend. Thanks for everything u done in my life in 2009, looking for a better one in 2010.. Happy new Year!!

Yanita : Thanks also for ur faithfully BUZZing me, it's great to know I have such a great friends, thanks to trust me , thanks for all of ur support through this difficult time, it was priceless... Happy New Year Sis.... Have a good look on the sunrise en shaking cars.. LOL

Randy : Thanks bro for ur help, I know there's some of tension for couple of months, but i really wish that we can start fresh, en put everything behind. Happy new Year!! Have a beautiful year ahead!!

Johan Logito : Happy New year bro, good to have a good friends like you, thanks for everything... Looking forward to see u (when I can see u, since u really busy rite now) ^^

Hmmmm.. I'm kinda out of words, but trying to keep it up ^^

Billy Sundjaya : Bill, Thanks ya buat semuanya, thanks for being a good friends dari dulu mpe sekarang. Mau ditumpangin tidur setiap kali g ke Bandung, I wish u never bore with it, thanks for sharing ur life with me ^^ Happy New Year!! Hope 2010 every wishes will come true.....

To All My LH Teacher: u guys ROCKS, it really been a privileged to get to know an awesome man en woman of God, that share the same PASSION!! It's PRICELESS!! I wouldn't trade anything for that. Thanks For Merry, being such a good leader, u can achieve even MORE!!! Thanks to Rony, Haryono, David en Joshua for being a MAN there, with me.. Hahahaha u guys irreplaceable!! For Liana, constantly nice to me en love eat BK a lot, really girl, nothing can compare with u!! LOL For Yenny that share a wonderful Christmas spirit, looking forward to cruise another awesome year with this TEAM!!! Thanks for all of you, for being nice en good 4 me... Happy New Year to Mieke,Ratna,Ryna,Dessy,Nana,Catherine,Lily,Meri Lim... Many Thanks..!!!!!

To my ex-colleague:

Catrina Kho : Thanks for being such a good (x)boss for me, good sister, provide me with the one of the most delicious food, no one can compare that, thanks, a big en huge thanks for an impact that u made in my life. Looking forward to have a better journey ahead. Happy New Year ci, have a blast year for whole family!!!

Lio Rita : Yeah2 Yeah Yeah.. I should have hear u.. Hahahhaha.. Thanks for being there for me, for how much u have been busy, still manage time to reply my G-Talk, even i need to wait for DAYS for the reply.. LOL... Thanks for being a good example foe me a good BIG sister... ^^ Have a nice en blast New Year!!!

Debby Susanto : Thanks little sis, for support me in every decision that I take, even hear all of my complain through out the year, in new or in old company, Thanks, many thanks for that, I can't tell you how much worthy u are. Happy New Year!!

Laidy Budiman : Happy New Year Bro, thanks for using MY happy puppy card, u make me famous there,(just by name) LOL Thanks for all year being a good friends, from all the happiness en also all the sadness ^^

I forgot one, Joni Lay : Thanks a lot bro for everything, the support, the help, being faithful for me, the wisdom, the... what else?? I'm speechless.. thanks for being my best buddy through out this year, it's been a tough year for me, en I always can count on you, i can't give u anything, but i can only pray 4 u ^^ all the best bro in 2010, all the best!!! Camera, Xbox, PS3 , BABY!!!! Yeah i'm going to be a lot of uncle for everyone, that excite me!!! Happy New Year!!!

Voice from Microsoft Words.... ^^

2009-12-31T05:40:00.001-08:00

28^th December 2009 - 11:05AM (@ the office without Internet)

Right now, I’m writing from Ms Word, since 24^th December, I got no internet connection anymore, so I miss a lot of things here (Read: Connection to the REAL WORLD.. Hahahaaha) It’s a long story, that I won’t share it here, it’s too personal and I think it’s not rite to write it here ^^ , the reason I make this blog is to share good things, to encourage people who read this to have a better life, and also my tribute to the loved ones (God, Families, Friends en Others) So I’m trying to be as positive as it look, even in my deepest or lowest moment in my life. ^^

So, usually I catch up with friends through YM, Twitter, FB, etc. Since today, I can do that, I just count on my cell phone to communicate with them or using Company’s E-mail. And FYI Internet is the only reason that I survived it here, so now, I need to think something else. ^^

I just want to look back my life, especially for the past 2 months. I felt that is the moment of the most negatives ‘Erick’ in 2009. I’m so frustrated with life here, everything seem so wrong, en what I’m doing is never enough. I’m complaining a LOT, whine a LOT and everything. Thanks to my friends that always be there for me, u guys Rocks!! At some point, especially when I spent my long holiday, yesterday, I made up my decision. I need to get out fro here soon. I’m not being fruitful here, not a bit. Most of the people will just (easily) said that Hang in there a bit more… The reason why I move up here, cause I see a potential raise, improvement, so when the fact the reality, en all of the element of ur body, mind, spirit went wrong, I think it’s the time u say enough, u need to take u-turn asap, don’t waste any more second going into wrong direction. I’ve heard that God have a quite way to teach you, en really I can’t explain how I felt right now.

The points are : -every open doors, is not always ur doors ; when u make a wrong turn, don’t wait too long till u lost, take u-turn asap ; Never ever felt ashamed if u have to took back ur word (for a really good reason, sometimes this just become a barrier for someone to move forward)-

28^th December 2009 - 11:45AM (still @office without Internet)

I really got nothing to do right now, all the work is completely done, it’s a holiday season, so everything is looks really slow, not as hectic as usually, and most of the boss is taking day off.

I just would like to summarize my “own made” holiday.

On Wednesday, 23^rd December 2009:

I went to Siloam Hospital, checking on my condition, it’s been 2 months I always have a problem with my lungs, I have a difficulty to take a breath, and cough hard a lot. My friends told me that I’ve been a lot of stress, en she sounds rite, the doctor said there nothing critical there, in the first examination he just gave me some medicine to take, and will return to him for about a week, to do further test. Thanks to Sasa, that she willingly accompanied me that day. Nothing special for the rest of the day.

On Thursday, 24^th December 2009:

Have quiet morning, have a little distraction there, since my bro’s friend ask him to take care of her dog, while she’s on vacation, so I got a morning call every day. On the afternoon, I went to my best buddy house, we play some video game, and unfortunately I lost on some of that game, it a little embarrassment for me, since he never defeated me all time, and after that he kept on teasing me about the game. I’m really a competitive person, that really hard for me to take a defeat LOL. We have a dinner in Yuraku, Kelapa Gading. We’ve planned this before, so we got a reservation earlier, the place is so packed, when I got in for the first time, I’m loosing my appetite, caused it was a mess. Since I’m very hungry myself, it came back, en we have a blast dinner, eat to the full!!! ^^ For your information, right before we got to Yuraku, we have a detour on Ketoprak (the best that I can tell) we ordered 2 portion for 3 people. I really look forward to get it again. It’s a great Christmas Eve, spent time with good friends.

On Christmas Day 2009:

My Mom leaving us to Jambi, since there’s a friend of her that pass away so she want to go there. Actually I want to have a family dinner on that day, but… we never know what will happen tomorrow. My day started with Hoka2 Bento for lunch. My friend asks me to watch movie with Him en his GF, so I went to SMS. I’m watching an almost 3 hours of the greatest movie in 2009, yeah u know AVATAR. It really a great movie, I even don’t want to leave the studio, or end the movie, it’s really speechless. The creator, director of it was really BRILLIANT!!! GENIUS!!! And have a moral story in it, really deep. I can relate it with our earth condition right now. We tend to ignore our mother earth, that showing sign of real bad destruction, for our own greed, we never preserve them, to selfish; we even don’t realize that our life is supported by it. Hopefully we can learn that lesson as soon as possible. At nite, I’m having dinner with my ex-colleague from APP, we ate Duck King.

On 26^th December 2009:

Decide it to have some quality time with my friend, we haven’t had this kind of conversation in long time. Good to catch up each other. @TA dinner at Pasta de Waraku, good restaurant with a lot of variety, but a bit of pricy.

On 27^th December 2009:

Playing FM 2010 all day, till have to pick up mom from airport, having a good dinner ‘Martabak India’ I have no idea what it called in English. ^^

Rite Now, 28^th December 2009:

Back to reality, read book, hear some music, work a bit and so sleepy. ^^

No point at all, just killing time with this writing. And also thinking about 2010…

Christmas -

2009-12-21T22:28:00.000-08:00

It's 3 days before Christmas, I already celebrate Christmas in my church. The service is always great, they never stop to surprises you. The drama presentation is beyond awesome, the message delivered through it, very powerful, and many more. We also already celebrate the Christmas for the kids, it was amazing, the kids are so cute, the decoration is great, we worked it all out only within hours (the day before). I can't wait to see the photo taken on that day (by me) There's a bunch of pretty face, exciting faces and just priceless.

Just about yesterday, I just find out what would be my first resolution for 2010. I started this year with this blog, en I determine to continue with it, it was fun, even I still need a lot of improvement, A LOT.... hehehehe.... Back to the resolution, the first list, en the most important thing to do next year is praying.. yes PRAYING... It's really funny, that I become a christian almost the rest of my life, but never (really, really) realize that Praying is the most powerful weapon God gave to us. Not that I never prayed, but just sometimes. "If u pray little its probably because u believe prayer doesn't accomplish very much.." this is the phrase that stabbed my heart... ^^ so deep... It's like Holy Spirit talked to me " Erick, Pray More!!" That's why I'm going to make it the most next year, it's a real Christmas gift that God gave to me ^^

In my next post I would like to summarize what happened in 2009, all the pro and con's.

Keep praying, u never know what can you do with praying... Move God's Hearts ^^

Have a good day!!

Love vs Forgiveness

2009-12-03T19:18:00.000-08:00

It's already December, always love the Months, it's Jesus Christ birthday, could never think the best present for Him, except my own Heart only toward Him. I guess that the best give that we ever possible gave to Him. It seems simple but yet very complicated and challenging.

I don't know how related this is, but i'll try hard to make it related. He2x. Yesterday I got an email, a very shocking email, I never knew that thing until he tell me that. I've learn that for some people or most of them, when they got a traumatized in the past, it will just carried away up till now. That's why I titled this Love en forgiveness.

The letter/e-mail that receive is inform me that I have caused him that really traumatized event, that I even can't recall that. I already apologize to him, because I love him so much, and really I'm glad that he told me that. The happier is He can accept my apology, and move on, I never said it easy but, hey... you can do it, it's all because of grace en mercy that God gives to us.

I have heard many story bout this kind of stuff, bitterness and traumatized from the past. And I can say that, in order to get free from it, you need to forgive people that did it to you, beside forgive you also need to open your heart, to have a courage to tell someone, share it (of course with the person that u trusted most, or you know that they can really help you) I can't see other way from that two can lead to a total reconciliation, not only between u en ur God, but also it'll improve your life (for sure).

One other thing that I want to share to you, it's about the choice. I might related to the bitterness things. This is just my opinion. You, never ever can blame anything that happen in ur life, not ur God, the circumstances , the people that hurt you etc. NEVER!! It's not easy to accept those situation, NOT EASY, but we need to be more wise, to see things in different perspective. Everything happen for a reason, the reason that if we can't open our heart en mind, trying to accept it, it will be never reveal (the reason why it happen). In every situation, actually you have a choice, have en option to chose, to do it or not, accept it or not. You must also realize that every action will come into consequences. There are instant one en also there's need time to see the result of it. So it's really about our choice, u can't put the blame to other (even it might be effect you directly) In other words, you have a choice to put all the things in the back en fixed things en see toward future. Don't get your past stop God blessing upon you, God had a master plan to you, ur potential put on hold cause u can't see tomorrow.

I have find an interesting, when God (in my opinion) change the 10 commandments into a simple phrase "Love ur God en Others with all you got" It mean that He want us to love each other, support each other.. That the greatest give that God have for us, and in return He just want us to share Love, to God also to other. Love can't be buy yet it's free. You have that love inside urself, u just need to distribute it.

Spread some love, en love will grant you the ability to forgive, en when u forgive you have no idea what God prepared for you... It's just AWESOME, beyond AWESOMENESS...

Have a good day ^^

Dejavu..

2009-11-24T17:53:00.000-08:00

24th November 2009..

I was planning to go with LH teacher on Saturday, because of I turned down the alarm that suppose to woke me up, I missed it, and regret it very much *sigh* so lookin forward for the next field trip with you guys....

Actually that Saturday was (supposed to) my getaway from the hectic weeks (want to say months) away from Jakarta, and related to people, real people ^^ But what can I say, it's because of my own faults though......

That week is quiet a week for me, I took leave on Monday, and on Tuesday I have a supplier visit, so basically I only got 3 days in the office (I loved it very much). Plus this week Monday visit supplier, and Friday we got Holiday!!! how cool it is, two weeks in row only 3 days office hour (wish I can get this every week)

On Monday (for the first time) I wake up on 6, because we have visit to Serang, I got pick by my colleague near home, so I'm really happy for that (not wake up from 4am) They got me on 9 ++ i really enjoy every second of it... LOL

So we reach Serang around 10.30am, we're having a discussion, plant visit and doing a fun stuff there (for me away from Karawang is the best thing ever) While sitting in the room, I realize something, the office that we visit, was my ex-employer. I'm not going to lie to you that I really miss my old office, specially the warmth, dynamic, intelligent and cool people that used to be my colleague. At that time it almost make me want to cry (so sensitive.. ^^ ) because of all of the memories that we're having back days, it's PRICELESS. I wish to (honestly) turn back time en reconsider again all the decision that I took.

We're planning to see each other this Thursday, I'm looking forward to it, real badly!!!

The point is: I don't want to look back, It's useless, so I've something in the future, real close and I'm looking to it, I hope that I can share it soon. It's just awesome!!!!

- Don't Ask -

2009-11-08T16:49:00.000-08:00

Still in huge influence from lamentation, I found a phrase that said "don't ask" very interesting. In every problem that we're facing we often (seems like) rushing God to solve the problem right away, we always nag Him for an answer. Nag is different from having faith and pray on it, I'm not saying that we can't ask Him, or pray for it.But do not Nag!! God is God, He know us en He will help you with His way.. ^^

In the problem that I'm facing, I often nag God, complain this, complain that. And just out of no where, that word keep popping on my mind "don't ask". I've started the don't ask treatment for a week, just having a simple prayer, askin God for the help, but not with the nag thing (when, how,when, and more when... ^^)

Out of the silence not nagging God, I have some good news (not really, but I'm excited already) Hopefully it will be answer within this week. So this is my second week of treatment and I'm expecting more from God.

He just simply want to say to us, "I know what you've been through, I'm working with something, just be patience bout it, I will help you, that my promises won't fail, I can guarantee that ^^"

Have a nice day... ^^

Weekend.....

2009-10-30T00:44:00.000-07:00

End of October....

I just can't believe that it's already November again, en when I look up to my resolution, *sigh* you know what i meant... Hahahahahaaha...

I always believe, and saying to myself times to times that this year I will receive something big, that will eventually change my life, with 2 months left, i keep manage my expectation high (even deep down, really deep down.. there's pessimism, but i tend to buried it really deep.

It have been an unpleasant 2nd semester in my life, seriously in my Life!! It's really tough a lot of things happen and reach it peak. But thank you I have such a great family, friends and God. I really hang on Lamentation 3 from Message bible.

Today i manage to write something because of my boss is not around and I'm finish my job already, and counting down to 5 now. On Sunday will have some meeting, (not really a meeting) hang out with my friends, that always be there for me, that kept me alive Hahahahhaha... We're planning to have a lunch in Plaza Indonesia, and I'm really craving for Burgers!! I have to eat one this weekend!! It's going to be fun, and I'm looking forward to it.

And I really got a change to relate with all the JPCC Kids teacher on 21st November. We're having an out bound in Jakarta, it's all day event en surely it's going to be awesome!!! Will get back to write more....

God bless and keep head up...

Lamentation

2009-10-30T00:29:00.000-07:00

This post just simply to remind me this moment I've been through....

One of my friend share this passage, en I find it "AWESOME"

Lamentation 3 (Message Version)

It's a Good Thing to Hope for Help from God

19-21

I'll never forget the trouble, the utter lostness, the taste of ashes, the poison I've swallowed.I remember it all—oh, how well I remember— the feeling of hitting the bottom.But there's one other thing I remember, and remembering, I keep a grip on hope:

22-24

God's loyal love couldn't have run out, his merciful love couldn't have dried up.They're created new every morning. How great your faithfulness!I'm sticking with God (I say it over and over). He's all I've got left.

25-27

God proves to be good to the man who passionately waits, to the woman who diligently seeks.It's a good thing to quietly hope, quietly hope for help from God.It's a good thing when you're young to stick it out through the hard times.

28-30

When life is heavy and hard to take, go off by yourself. Enter the silence.Bow in prayer. Don't ask questions: Wait for hope to appear.Don't run from trouble. Take it full-face. The "worst" is never the worst.

31-33

Why? Because the Master won't ever walk out and fail to return.If he works severely, he also works tenderly. His stockpiles of loyal love are immense.He takes no pleasure in making life hard, in throwing roadblocks in the way:

Older Brother and Younger Brother, By Ps. Mark Conner

2009-10-07T01:10:00.000-07:00

Sunday 4th October 2009

As usually, wake up at 6 AM, and getting ready for church. I knew that today will be Ps. Mark Conner that bring up the sermon. I really never expected that it’s going to be beyond great, I mean, no offense I love all the pastor that brings sermon in JPCC, I love them all ^^

I’ll just get to the point, what Ps. Mark Conner talking about is really a revelation for me, the thought that I never imagine it before. I’ll start with Luke 15: 1-31, it says:

The Parable of the Lost Sheep

1Now the tax collectors and "sinners" were all gathering around to hear him. 2But the Pharisees and the teachers of the law muttered, "This man welcomes sinners and eats with them."
3Then Jesus told them this parable: 4"Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Does he not leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? 5And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders 6and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, 'Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.' 7I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent.

The Parable of the Lost Coin

8"Or suppose a woman has ten silver coins[a] and loses one. Does she not light a lamp, sweep the house and search carefully until she finds it? 9And when she finds it, she calls her friends and neighbors together and says, 'Rejoice with me; I have found my lost coin.' 10In the same way, I tell you, there is rejoicing in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner who repents."

The Parable of the Lost Son

11Jesus continued: "There was a man who had two sons. 12The younger one said to his father, 'Father, give me my share of the estate.' So he divided his property between them.

13"Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. 14After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. 15So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. 16He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.

17"When he came to his senses, he said, 'How many of my father's hired men have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! 18I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. 19I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired men.' 20So he got up and went to his father.
"But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.

21"The son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.[b]'

22"But the father said to his servants, 'Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. 23Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let's have a feast and celebrate. 24For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' So they began to celebrate.

25"Meanwhile, the older son was in the field. When he came near the house, he heard music and dancing. 26So he called one of the servants and asked him what was going on. 27'Your brother has come,' he replied, 'and your father has killed the fattened calf because he has him back safe and sound.'

28"The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father went out and pleaded with him. 29But he answered his father, 'Look! All these years I've been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends. 30But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for him!'

31" 'My son,' the father said, 'you are always with me, and everything I have is yours. 32But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' "

You’ll probably know this story, it might be the favorite one which tell about the lost, and be welcome by the father (in Heaven). I’m really excited and there’s many things to write down but don’t know where to start ^^ I’ll try my best to deliver it well to you.

In all three parables, there are similarities, “Lost – Found – Rejoice” but if you take your time and read it carefully there are actually one different, from the first and second parable, the master (the one that fell lost) is the one looking out, searching the lost one, but in the parable of the lost son, the lost himself that return to the master (father). This is one thing, you’ll find another thing… buckle up.. ^^

There is one interesting about the parable of the lost son (I’ll be focused in this one).
• The first scene is the ‘younger’ son asking his share from his father (this is considered so rude, when you asking your share while your father is still alive), then he left his father.
• The second scene is the ‘younger’ son spent up all of his money, in party committed sin, he have a lot of friends (FYI: it’s a common practice that if u have a lot of money, friends tend to come)
• The third scene he’s on the edge of desperation, even he need to work in a pig farm, feeding the pig, out of starvation he even not allowed to share the pig food. Guess what, he broke and have no friends, then he realize that he want to come home, being the servant of his father even have a better life.
• The fourth scene, on the way home, from far away, the father can see the ‘younger’ brother. The father run into him, hug him and kiss him full of compassionate , even he ask all the servant to bring some robe, ring and sandals for the ‘younger’ brother and even so the father held a party, a celebration for his ‘younger’ son. The ‘younger’ brother enters the house again.

This is the story of the ‘older’ brother:
• The first scene, he aware that the father gives his share to the ‘younger’ brother.
• The second scene will represent his life while the ‘younger’ brother flees away, and enjoying his life, with his way to the max. The ‘older’ brother in the other hand, work so hard, never complaint, obey his entire father asking for.
• The third scene, while he is working hard on the field, he heard some music, and be told that the ‘younger’ brother has return, and the Master throw a party, and kill the fattened calf for his ‘younger’ brother, remember this, that this ‘older’ brother is outside of house, and he so furious with his father and refuse to come in and join the party, but once again, the father came outside to talk to the ‘older’ brother, trying to persuade him to join the party, the story end here.

I’m 100% believe, if we watching movie, end it end like this, we would be so mad, and curious about the real end of this story, whether the ’older’ brother came in to he house again or not. We all will have the same question, and neither one of us can answer it; it left only Jesus that can answer or finish the story. There is something that God wanting us to know; here is the shocking part (for me).

In this parable, it should be represent something, ‘older’ brother represent Pharisee, and the teacher of the law; ‘younger’ brother represent sinners and tax collectors; Home represent heaven; and finally, father represent our beloved Father in heaven.

If we try to look in New Testament the entire ‘older’ brother is trying to judge people, even Jesus Himself. They think really hard how to interpret the law from the Old Testament, for example “what you can do and u can’t do on the Sabbath” they find to a conclusion that if you tied a knot wit only one hand, you’re not violating the Sabbath law, but if you’re using both hand, than you violating the law. (I’m not sure about this, I think this is just example, I’m totally trying to deliver what Ps. Mark Conner said ^^ )

There’re a lot of even where the ‘older’ brother complaining to Jesus, while He trying to tie a knot with 2 hands with the ‘younger’ brother. It’s really hurtful for me to say this, maybe that I’m one of the ‘older’ brother, maybe you, or someone you know. What is Jesus trying to say is, approach you ‘younger’ brother, than they will automatically follow you, in short Jesus show some love to them, en they turn themselves in, not in the other way (you Follow Jesus and then He’ll love you – NOT AT ALL!!!) Many times Jesus show to us, the He first loves us, never en ever he asked us to follow Him first, He love you anyway. One of the stories that suit this is story about Jesus meat Zacchaeus (Luke 19:1-10). Jesus did not ask him to directly change, Jesus having lunch first with him, and you know how the story goes.

Let’s back to the story, (this is just my opinion) its ok for us to live like the ’younger’ brother, exploiting something new, explore yourself even more (of course within direction and wisdom), we tend to live like the ‘older’ brother, saying, “hey I’m the one will enter the heaven, I do obey my God, I did everything according to His will” but guess what, the ‘older’ brother is the one outside the house!!! Isn’t shocking, what does it suppose to mean? When I heard that, it fell like thousands of knives flying into my heart!!

I’m certainly thing that we can’t take this literally. Jesus just wants to show us something, He might say this to the ‘older’ brother:

“My Son, you know that I love you all so much, I appreciate a lot that you knew Me, you did whatever I asked you to be, you are the one that know me more than anybody, and since that I’m already leaving the earth, and all I can depend on just the Holy Spirit that stay within you, so what I’m asking you to do is, just simply reach out for your younger brother, they need you to be by their side, to feel Me within your presence there. I would love to see both of you in my house, could you do that to Me”

Love,
Jesus Christ

This parable just want to teach us, that God really want us to reach out, find our own beloved brother (I say it never been easy) God gave all of the resources needed, compassion, strength, Holy Spirit, creativity, etc. But if we not carefully, it will lead us up the other way… So the choice is yours, I would like to say that Ps. Mark Conner words, is the best revelation that I got this year, I’m still waiting good things to happen this year, it’s already October now, but still having faith out of it. Have a nice day guys… Hope it bless you as well.

Triple Nine Day

2009-09-09T03:22:00.000-07:00

9 September 09

It’s triple 9 day… and will make a mark by writing something here.

9 is my favorite number, even though there’s no particular reason for that, just love it. The number is usually used by a striker in a soccer game; they are the so called “finisher”, which mean the decider. Most of the goal score is from the striker position, one of my idols is Ronaldo from Brazil, he has such a tremendous skill, a very skillful palyer, that scored a lots of goal.

In this life I much describe myself as the striker, and a decider. I just somehow and someway have a confidence in term of making a decision. Eventually I’ve got no evidence right now telling the story of my success and talent that been given by God to me. But I got a strong feeling I’m going to be a good one, not just in my life, but also in every area that God trusted me to. In a bigger picture, I want to be a person that makes a tremendous impact in my family, society, environment etc. Just like a striker that is a decider on the field, to take a team win by his goal.

In the past several weeks I’ve been trying hard to be a (more) faithful son to Him. Right now I’m in terrible situation; I’ve been struggle with things. But somehow I’m managed to get through each and everyday, without any real burden. And everyday I always saying to myself a positive things, “Erick today is going to be a great day”, “today something good will just happen”, “the day that you waiting for will eventually come, BY THIS DAY” the fact until now, nothing great happen to me, but I still having a faith that eventually will come. Right now my motto is God will never leave you, nor forsake you. Recently I just heard a sermon by Ps. Joel Osteen. It’s about a blessing from God that’s on the way, that is help is just in time, we just need to be ready to receive it, and the most important things is say it always. Every morning I practice it, say good thing that I want to happen (for sure also, by His will). It’s hurt honestly, if what you’re asking to happen delay by God. And every nite while praying looks like I’m complaining to God.

Since today is 09 09 09 I really expect something big will happen, something that will set me free, and all of the people involved in this mess. If it’s not happening today, there is still tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow….

So I’m learning to be more faithful and patience, I know what I’m capable of, moreover what God can do in my life… He is just Awesome, beyond Awesomeness.. Thank God..

-God doesn't create evil, evil is a result of what happen when man doesn't have God's Love present in his heart- Albert Einstein

"Quoting"

2009-08-24T21:06:00.000-07:00

I'm Quoting this from my sister blog, I found it interesting, she has been some kind of anger to one of her friend, that act like the first quote, and if my sister insisting not to forgive or let it go, it will be the same..

Being a Christian not just about how many hours you put in prayers, reading bible, attending Christian conferences, church and put your days in to fasting if you do not have the character of Christ.

And somehow God replied:

"Look, if I never let you go through this event, you will end up the same. You can praise and read the bible everyday, but you are not showing my character, it will be useless"

God bless u friends.... ^^

J U D G E

2009-08-24T18:01:00.000-07:00

I just want to share a bit here, I get this from last sermon by Ps. Allan Meyer.

In the old testament, we find that after Adam fell into sin, we seem look God as judgmental God, we have no privilege to have a Father and Son relationship like when Adam not fell into sin yet.

God Himself not comfortable with that kind situation, that's why He send he beloved Son, Jesus Christ, come down to earth and pay all of human beings debt on the Cross, and He said "It is finished"

From that moment our God is not a judgmental God anymore, He is our Father, and we have that privilege again to have Father-Son relationship with Him, but why sometimes we felt uncomfortable speaking about our Father, our God, our Savior. He is not a condemn God, He is God of Love, love that can't be measure by human, but surely we can demonstrate it.

This world in desperate need of love, the least we can do is share God's love, in every way that you can interpret. When you do this, u give a help for this world. Love is all we need right now, I'm not talking about romantic Love ^^ but Love, unconditional Love, friends it's not going to be easy, not at all. Once Mother Theresa says "If we can't love the person whom we see, how can we love God, whom we cannot see" I'm going to make this simple, "We love the God that we can't see, why it's hard to Love person that we can see"

Spread some sincerity Love and unconditional Love... I'm working on it also, let's begin from small steps, through your environment at office, business place, at home towards our maid, driver, neighbor... Money can't buy Love!!

Have a nice day all...

-By Far- Most exciting Moment in 2009

2009-08-10T03:19:00.000-07:00

August 8^th

I have to admit, that day is the most fun and awesome day for this year (so far). It has been a while for me, that I can have so much fun, with friends in Dufan (Indonesia only one theme park). The last time I visit was like more less 7 years!!! ago…. We laugh together, shout together and even cry together =(

I might say that is what I need in these moments, after 2 months far from social live and civilization; it’s the perfect gate away!!!

The day start really slow, I only slept for 6 hours, then I have to finish my office work for a while (Erick doing His office job at home, it’s a miracle) ^^ At 8 someone remind me that we have a ‘breakfast date’. The other night I was thought she was joking that she would like to have breakfast with me, so I kind of not prepare for everything. Right after Her text me I rush to take a shower and go the rendezvous (SinPa’sa) we’re having a nice and very delicious Jambi’s Noodle while waiting for David to pick us up (Special thanks to David that He willing to sacrifice to pick us from PIK to Karawaci, and later we found out that we should have join Yoshua, because he lives nearby; u’re awesome bro!!!)

The journey begin,

Right after David pick us (me and Liana) we straight went to Mery house and pick Manda near ancol. We gathered there around 11AM and it was crowded already. David (again) with His humble heart queuing for all of us for the ticket. We’re fortunately having some disc from the ticket. When we enter Dufan, it’s already 12PM and it’s lunch time!!! We’re having our lunch at McD.

After finish with the lunch we directly go for our first ride, everybody join except fro Yoshua and Roni. I tell you, that I’m having a super great time there. We really maximized our limited time there, playing from 12 till 8PM. It’s really a blessing for me that I still got cool and awesome friends, and they are a truly nice and decent man and woman. I can’t give thanks more for God allowed me to know them. Every expression show tired face, but also full of excitement and also happiness at the end. I felt that we’re like knowing each other for a long time, and I can say that that day is the first time (since I work in Karawang) I feel satisfied with live, I don’t want to end the day!!!

After a tiring day, all wet from the ride also from sweat we decide to go home, and having our last supper for Hilda and Rini. This is the sad part, where we have to let go our beloved friends, it’s tough but, we can’t be selfish. We’re having the dinner in Meri Lim’s restaurant, call ‘Oca’ it provide Japanese food. The dinner went well; we’re eating like crazy Hahhahahaha…. (or just me??)

22.00 PM. We just finished our dinner, now the time for say good bye, we’re praying for each other at that moment, especially for Hilda and Rini, they will be entering the next phase of their life, Getting married!!! Once again, it’s great and pleasure for me to know u, I believe this won’t be the end of everything, we still can get update from ‘Facebook’ or for Hilda we can still visit each other.. ^^ I’m praying all the best for both of you, u all will be an awesome mom and wives, may God give u wisdom for each and every day, and we all believers says Ameeeeenn !!!!! Going to miss u in Sunday School.

On Sunday I also got the other farewell… I’m going to miss Ashley and Aaron… they’re going back to USA.. =(

-End of July and Start of August-

2009-08-03T02:20:00.000-07:00

It’s officially a month now stay in Karawang… working here and be a totally (still) strangers…

But I thanked God every weekend I still go back to a civilization, met my friend, and family.

Just yesterday hearing a shocking news, that one of my colleague is having interview today, he even only 5 months here, and he already to think to get away from here (same with me here) but practically for a different reason (sort of the same but they’re different)

Right now my feeling and thought is still the same, I can’t get along here I just don’t know why it just can’t happen. Maybe some of you that knew me would say there’s nothing wrong with me, some of u just “so so” know me, might say that I’m a quiet or talk less person. In fact I’m not at all I’m quiet talkative if I found a person that share same thoughts, etc….

in contrary in the past few weeks ago, I’ve been blessed a lot by Ps. Kong Hee, He truly a man of God (not mention also my Ps. In JPCC, I love u all and u’re awesome!!! Hahaahaha )I’ve been heard from Him how u can relate with ur live, church is only one thing, but the purpose of what we all made in this world is only one, glorify His name, by what?? By showing to them how good God is, how He have a full compassion an endless love no matter what and who we are, because basically ‘we’ all is His image. I realize my self that we can be like a superman in our own church, and felt no body can beat us, and to all the non believer we felt superior than them, we sometimes judges them, condemn them, but only in Sunday…. In the other day?? Mon – Sat we are the loser; we don’t even know how to react in this world we sometime hiding in our very comfort zone just to wait until Sunday come again or worst we act like them in the weekdays. Ironic huh?? I’m not saying this because of im perfect enough or whatsoever, I’m still learning, matter of fact I just learn, it will not be easy but that is the purpose that God put on us, I like the slogan that Giordano use, we should make this world “world without stranger” love one another like you love ur own God.

When we can make an impact in the society, or Ps. Kong Hee said 2^nd zone/world, 1st world is our church, which we only live in there like 2-5 hours a day. What we live most is in this 2^nd world, where we spent almost all of our time, like school, business, market, entertainment , etc we need to do something there, after we got a protection and blessing and strength from the 1^st place we apply it in this world. After we success in this part we can be taken to the 3^rd world, which all the elite live, politician , great and influence business man, and all great people that have influence on this world (literally) When we got there, and can make an influence there, we can change the world!!! It’s awesome to know it, that we need to be really excellent to be draw near to this 3^rd world, God has planted an awesome seed into all of use, with our own uniqueness so, why don’t we gave it all back to Him.

And also I learn about “What to do ,when you don’t know what to do”, I forgot the detail (I’m not writing it down because I’m so amazed with Ps. Kong Hee hahaahahah) at the Sunday services. I’ll do my best to write it down, I’m also looking forward to find the sermon’s copy ^^ , the point that I remember is, Stand before God, focus on God’s promises not your problem, wait for Holy Spirit – (I’ll update as soon as I get the detail)

So what I’m struggling rite now is should I stay here, where all of my body and mind is not in here anymore, every night I’m shout out… “GOD PLEASE GET ME OUTTA HERE” still having faith that “rancangan-Mu adalah rancangan yang indah,bukanlah rancangan yang jahat” I’m willing to hold His promises. (while searching for alternatives of course…hahaahaha)

I miss my friends a lot, I miss my ex-colleague there I miss every single second that I spent with them, in good and bad moment.

I miss joking with Debby, sometimes She got to serious and I’m like nothing to do en go in her place start to make noise there, gossiping talking about or lovely BF and the company … missing a lot that time ^^

Miss also chat with Laidy, if I feel hungry his place is surely number one come out in my mind, cause he always keep a lot of food there, he’s kind of stockiest for me.. hahhahha miss u bro ^^

For my neighbor also, I miss her a lot while she get mad to supplier, talking and joking with driver (hahaahhaaha), I miss her spirit that make me amaze, and did make me think for a moment ‘should I leave SM’ (turns out to be right hahahaaha…) Her wisdom, wise word, determination and all great stuff that a future mom have had… really nice to know you and looking forward to see u,

I miss each and every person there, even though we’re not close enough but still it’s nice to have friends at the same age, same level etc

I miss ci Catrin with all Her Baganesse food, and her so ‘quite’ daughter (maybe just in front of me hahahahha) Miss talking with her also, even She’s so busy back then but I can get some good advise and have a quite nice conversation with her…

I MISS EVERYTHING THErE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Miss Jakarta, Miss KArawaci, Miss Supermall, Miss SMS, Miss my old friends’ en etc.. SUPER BIG TIME!!!

I guess I need stop here, or I’ll even get more emotional…. ><

I need extra strength and answer for my entire question; I’ll learn to focus on His promises..

Thanks to one of my friends in TGR, who never tired to support me and chat with me during the office hour.. ahhaahhaaha

Note: The first part I write at 31th July and the 2^nd part just now, 3^rd August. Today is her birthday and I’m praying all the best for her carrier, education, family, friends and her health, wishing also that all of her dream come true, and mine.. ^^

Almost a month, still in Misery ^^

2009-07-13T03:28:00.000-07:00

13th July

I’m heading to one month here, still having the home sick here…. Hikz hikz =(

I’m start to asking myself, is there something wrong with me? Seriously, I never felt like this before, I mean I’m 26 years old, I should have the ability to adapt fast, when I left alone in Bandung, it just took 1-2 months to get used to it, in that period it not as hard as this one, wish that everyday is Friday. Right now, I love the word TGIF; cause it time for me to get back to Jakarta!! YEaaaayyy!!

2 weeks ago, I’m having movie marathon, I watch Transformer then Ice Age 3, the movie is worth to watch, and even in that day I just having the JPCC Kids Anniversary and Rev Dr A.R Bernard seminar in the morning. All of he event went well, the preach was great, the rehearsal went well, the anniversary also went perfect, the performance that I’m taking part in was awesome, it’s my second time and it feel good. There some small part in my heart and mind that I would love to try to become an actor haahhhahaha… looking forward to make it happen LOL

JPCC Kids Anniversary

On Sunday, JPCC held their 10th anniversary in Ritz Carlton Ballroom, I took the first service and overall it went awesome, I’m amazed by what God can do, it starts with just 4 people, and in one decade it became almost +/- 5000 people. I believe that God put more ad bigger vision to JPCC, and as the member of the church we have to support it, we will not just be a regular member, but we also become an integral part of JPCC, the value that been taught we need to implement it, otherwise it will not make any impact in the society. I still need a lot of improvement to do, to make a better me and for the sake of His kingdom.. aahahahhah (sounds cliché)

Last Saturday I having lunch with Lily and San-san,to celebrate Lily’s belated birthday, we’re having lunch at Yakoya BBD tower, when we arrive there we all like people that haven’t eat for days.. hahahhah we very enjoying the lunch, catch up each other, talking bout everything, it really nice to hear from them again, that really the thing that I need, a real conversation with friends (which in almost a week, it’s really difficult to me to find one) after having lunch, which we ate till very very very full, and we find it hard to walk… LOL we went to Puri Mall, to catch a movie, we watch Ice Age 3 in 3D (I watch the movie again, but still laughing hard) after that Lily need to go home earlier, before that I ask them to try Sour Sally, this is what I found unbelievable, that they don’t know what sour sally is… ckckckkckckc…. I guess they live too long in Tangerang.. hahahaha….

Lily, San2 en Me @ Yakoya

I have my first service again, after 3 weeks absent (in Upper Room) the head pastors was still in Hillsong Conference and we’ve been bless by Jony Herjawan, He talk about vision, in correlation with JPCC 10th Anniversary the other week, it’s really a good sermon, even though it’s bit heavy for first service. I learn that vision leak and vanish, so we need to be constantly talk about it, think about it and pursue it with all our heart and mind, He use an F1 racing as the analogy that the point was the grand vision, grand destination, we need to be constantly re-charge, refuel so we can end the race in first position ^^ and also I love this quote “bad decision is just the second best, it’s better than have no decision at all, because when u not decide anything, time will take the decision for you, and for your information, time is evil” so what we can do is to make the other decision to the best one, we can’t turn back time to change it, and never ignore it, till the time take privilege make your decision, and also the further you went to wrong direction, that distance also you need toward the correct decision, there’s no instant way to achieve it.

Looking forward to see u girl

After services, I went with Yusly to eat bakmie ‘noban’ (noodle that cost you 20k) hahahaha.. I’m really enjoying my weekend, having the food that good from my fave restaurant and also my mom (thanks mom) That Sunday also my first time serving Sunday School, after 3 weeks absent, I met 2 wonderful boy and girls, they’re bro and sis, the older one called Austin, and his young sister called Abigail. They came from abroad, I’m not sure where, but other teacher said they came from USA, that’s explain that they talk English hahahahah… the funny thing that the sister is more playful, she laugh with me without whining “daddy, daddy, I want to see my Daddy” it’s kind of tough for me, facing the tantrum that kids throwing at you, but the other side I’m enjoying it, we manage to convince Austin to stay until their father finished the service. I mean come on, 3 weeks absent and god gave me that challenge hahahhaaha.. but really I miss the kids there, I’m also going to miss some of them, cause they graduating to the higher class, good for them ^^

Miss all of you..!!

And today back to reality again.. =(
Looking forward to this week long weekend… hahahaa…..

- First Weekend - 27th June 2009

2009-06-28T20:58:00.000-07:00

Back again in Karawang,

Last Friday it was the most horrifying day in my life, 5 hours trip from Karawang to Karawaci!!!! I’m thinking of another alternative of transport, maybe I’ll go with train (still gathering the information) it’s kinda frustrating if I have to go through it every Friday, it mean no more Friday night movie =(

-With my partner-

Above all, and despite the traffic ‘horror’ it turns out good even awesome on Saturday, my best friend held their wedding party at Balai Samudra. It turn out I’ve been pick as His best man (walk on the aisle with the 4 bride’s maid) met a lot of old friends from college, just enjoying the party almost until midnight. It was really an exhausting day but also quite astonishing day ^^ I’m really happy for both of you. After the party, we (Danny en Yusly) wen to Pecenongan , buying martabak, and you know what, we spent nearly 100k heheheheh….. it’s already late at nite ( 1.00AM) we decide to slept over in Sheraton (the room available because of one of Mike friends can’t come to the party)

-All of Us, with the Mr & Ms Widjaja-

On Sunday, we woke up at 9.00AM, going down for breakfast, and you guess what, we need to waiting list for the breakfast!!! So we decided to eat outside than go do Dyke new ‘home’ . We’re talking for almost an hour, about the party yesterday ^^

-With the Indonesia 'GODDESS'-

After checking out from the Hotel, I straight go to JPCC, going to have a rehearsal for the celebration, I’ve been absent from the church for 2 weeks. The rehearsal went quite well, I have a new ‘Lala’ and we practicing for 2 round than went home. It’s quite a day, still felt tired from the party, went home , pack stuff then go back to Karawang, my Mom drive me there (cause I have to bring a lot of furniture)

Ashley, She never want to take a picture with me =(

Beside the party, there are a lot of things happen. Like one of my friend decide to end His single status, still ongoing process and hoping that we all can get the results by this week, Good Luck bro..!!!

And terrible things also happen, I just found out a truth, trust me truth is not always good, in fact it hurts me a lot, almost stressed out, and because of that I can’t slept well. I wish to have the solution of this ‘gigantic’ problem, asking for a divine strength for this matter seriously it’s frustrated all of us (Family)I’m praying that may God intervene this immediately (Please…)

I’m also praying for my sister, hoping God gave a strength for Her, to get through everything there, I know it’s not easy, but I’ll be t your back.. ^^ Love U and Miss U a lot!!!

2009-06-25T23:34:00.000-07:00

Friday 26th June 2009,

It’s already my third day in Karawang, the feeling was mixed up, between happy and sad (home sick). This is the whole new life for me, living far (again) from my family. I’m thinking, is this the life I want to live, is it going to make a better of me? But one thing for sure, that changes always make u uncomfortable (that’s what I felt right now) Positive side is I’m getting out from my comfort zone. I need a lot of courage and ‘divine’ strength to adapt here, and my life afterwards (I’m alone here, literally) I miss my friends, college friend, church friend, my ex-co-workers at Sinar Mas (Miss U Guys A LOT LOL).

3 days working here, I’m exited about the entire new role that I have, it’s very interesting. Met the whole new people here, really need to ADJUST asap, if not, I’m might thinking back to Jakarta =) I don’t want to talk much about here, cause it make me pause a lot, and I’ve been thinking for more than 10 minutes to go on with this writing, I felt depress and sad (home sick), so lets talk other stuff, when I felt strong enough (apa coba) to write about my situation here I’ll post it in the future (hoping ASAP).

So, today I will go back to Jakarta Yeaaayy!!! Have a lot of things to do, I’m actually full booked until next week (sombongnya) =p Right after I arrive at Jakarta, I’m going straight to watch a movie that people has been waiting for some time “Transformer 2 : The Revenge of the Fallen” it’s going to be acool and nice movie, some of my friends had commented already and they all agree that this is a great movie that worth to be watch (at Premiere) I will go home maybe nearly midnight… sighhhh!!!

Tomorrow I will be starting from morning (till dawn) help my best friend wedding party; it’s going to be an awesome yet exhausted day….. ^^ - in this case I hope that I can meet someone there (someone that I really expected to come; finger crossed)

On Sunday 29th June 2009, this is going to be a looooooooooong day, (maybe) wil start the first service at 7.30AM, have to come earlier because of the ‘car free’ day and the annoying things that I won’t last until 7.00PM GGrrrrr…!!! Attend 2nd service for Little Heaven (miss them cause I was absent last week) break ‘till 2.00PM and then starts for the last practice for the ‘act’ for JPCC Kids Birthday Celebration, tan maybe will go straight to Karawang again…. (think about those schedule really tiring) =( but show must go on……..

C U again whenever I’m posting again ^^

PS: “ Your Words create your World”

UPDATE = the ticket for Transformer 2 was already sold out!!! So no movies for this week =(

- Goin 26 -

2009-06-24T02:15:00.000-07:00

Goin 26
It’s a weird birthday for me, in ne side thank God I got a new job and the sad part is, there’s nobody here know it’s my birthday… sucks!!!

But all of my good friends have congratulate me, that’s make my day even better ^^

First at 00.30AM I got called from someone that just married she was the first person that say Happy Birthday to me, plus additional from Ashley, it was just a great to hear from Her.

It’s my first day here, and everything went quiet well, I realize that it’s almost the same where you work, there’s still politics and other stuff.

The one is lacking from today is phone call or SMS from my sister, she usually remember this day ^^

It almost 5 now, I need to go on time cause I’m having my first bike here..
One thing, thank guys for the early present that u gave to me, it’s so awesome, till make me speechless, I love it very much and it’s the thing that I’ve been wanted, so millions of thanks!!!

I’ll write more tomorrow

Love u guys, and thank God for this day, even without a cake and people I knew =)

-My Last Day- (sweet memories)

2009-06-17T11:21:00.000-07:00

Today would be my last day (in APP) ……

I’ll take a flash back a bit, I just got a new job since early June, it’s was really a tough decision, but it have to be made, and I thing that I make a good one, I’m leaving to challenge myself, get out from my comfort zone and step ahead, which I believe that I can’t get it from here. It’s kind of frustrated for past few months behind, I kept saying to God, “please find me another job” He seems answer me asap ^^ despite of all things I’ve been grateful given opportunity to serve in such a BIG company. So the point is, I get a better opportunity and I willing to take the risk and all of the consequences.

It’s been almost 2 years that I serve APP, I learn a lot of things here, working with truly genuine professionals. Never regret every moment and the job that I took here. Having a great relationship with many of awesome and great friends, there’s ups and downs but it’s all worth. Gain a huge of experience from an experience people.

I would like to give my gratitude to the ‘BIG’ boss, which gave me the opportunity here, it’s been an honor to work under your leadership. Best wishes for your family and kept do great things ahead for ur company. ^^

Next thanks to my first mentor, ko Andre, I know that we’ve been through some rough patches but hope it have been forget already, and head for a long friendship, I always have a full respect of you, learn a huge thing from you, a great leader in my point of view. It’s really an honor (again) to work under ur supervision, u always take a good care of me, having much fun back there, playing soccer together (even lost in first tournament ^^) share same favorite club (long live MAN UNITED!!) Thanks once again, my best wishes for your family, specially ur awesome twins (I never had a chance to met them, but hope sometime in future I will) God Bless…

Next for my second mentor, Ms. Catrina Kho ^^. Ci it’s been a truly great year with you, totally a different leadership, and yet learn a lot of things from you. Been a great friend also, thanks for sharing your life and family to me. I don’t know what do you thing about me, but hoping that I’m not disappointed you that much, and I’m sorry for all of my mistake that I’ve made, every single word that I might accidentally said everything deh pokoknya he2x. I hope that we can still be friend, I’ve been putting a lot of respect to you, you are a truly professionals and have a great personality. And you will kept rock there, people will look unto you. Just don’t give a damn with what people said about you, have faith with your ability u’re doing great (once again) my best wishes for your family, u’re a great wife and mom. God Bless ^^

Me & The Angels (-1) ^^

First of all, special thanks to Ike K Hermanto, thanks for the lessons that you taught me, u give me everything, that you knew (ga pernah pelit!!) thanks for the first lunch that we had together (g masih inget banget kita makan di Seroja ^^ ) thanks to be a great friend to me, being nice to me and etc. I’m sorry that I can’t attend you wedding, hopefully you’ll come to mine ^^ I’m really proud for what you achieve there, truly inspirational for me, ur determination, dedication and perseverance THUMBS UP!! I really learnt a lot from you (wish that I have a half of you) LOL .Best wishes for u and family, keep rocking there ^^

For Lio, Debby and Adit, I know what you all felt rite now (sok tau ya g) just kept do ur awesome job, thanks for being nice to me there, and hope that in future it remain the same.

Lio: jangan lembur2 terus, perhatiin suami u !!! heuhuehheu

Me and Debby Susanto

Debby: u’ll find great things shortly (have faith!!) getting married soon, have an awesome family!!

Me and Adit

Adit : wish u all the best bro!! speechless g (too cool to be true) =p

EMona : Wishing u all the abundant blessing for your second son (bener kan ya ^^)

Me & Ms.Kurniawan

Maureen : Don’t miss me ^^ Sorry that i left you with a lot of things hahahahha.....

Me & Didi

Didi : Thanks for sharing ur life with me, and never give up, when we met again, I’m hoping that I can met ur first child ^^ u're an awesome wife and soon to be Mom

Januar : ko thanks for all the advice and being nice with me, it mean a lot for me. God bless ur family

Ci Anggie : Thanks for all the extra work that u’ve done for me, from the beginning till the end of my career there ^^

Me & Laidy Budiman ^^

Laidy : Thanks for everything that you’ve done to me, for the meals that’s been provide, patience with me and sharing ur life I guess… jangan sombong2 en sorry that I left u first hahahahhah….. something good is laying ahead of you, u got to reach it have FAITH!!!

Suhartini aka San2 : Thanks to be a good host in IK Tangerang, it’s nice to met you and know you, sabar2 ya, start to fight for things, jangan diem aja, speak out ur mind!!! Take Care ^^

Lily Y : Makasih juga ya bu, dah mau menerima daku di IK TGR dengan baik dan benar hueheuheueh, jaga baik2 San2 ya, jangan lupa dikasi makan en dimandiin, pokoknya dirawat dengan baik dhe ^^

Me & The Neighbor

Fung2 : My beloved neighbor ^^ thanks for all the nasi ulam that u ever provide it to me, it’s priceless hahahaahha…

For all of people that I know there, sorry can’t mention one by one. Just wanth to say thanks to being my friend, it’s been my pleasure that u all have come into my life, really it’s been an honor. Sorry kalo ada kata2 or perbuatan yang ga berkenan, baik yang disengaja maupun tidak, still sorry.

Above all, thanks you guys, for an awesome (almost) 2 years serving APP, without u there, I might not survive that long ^^ . U guys just awesome to be missed, but what can I said, I’ll miss u all BIGGGGGGG Time, u’re all the reason that I (might) a second thought.

Never said goodbye cause we’ll be sure met again, and still be friends ^^

Love u all… and Good Luck + God Bless U all

Created: On 18^th June 2009, at 2:27 AM

In the mood... ^^

2009-04-28T20:25:00.000-07:00

Back again, it’s already been a while since my last post, I’m really been a very bad mood so…. ^^

There’s a lot of things that I would like to share, as my previous post I’ve said that this been a tough year for me, and it still not changing till this moment (kinda sucks) but I still have a big faith that I’m going to be do unexpected things this year, we’ll see (I’m working on it) you know that my God is full of surprises, u never know =p

First of all I would like to apologize to my friends that I’ve been disappointed (I’m failing my promises) friends I’ll promise to fix it up to you.. (Another promise)

I have a huge plan (for it’s huge) I would like to start a business, partnering with my friend from BDG, I would like to sell noodle (I felt that it’s so difficult to find a decent noodle around Karawaci) I’ve been thinking a lot about it, the place is kinda sucks, but somehow and somewhat I just get the feeling of it, if I may said even heaven support me about it, cause I believe that sometimes business is not depend on the market only, we need also the G factor, that’s what I’m going after, beside a good plan and work hard also count… ^^ I believe also God will never fail His children, “ask and it will be given” that’s the thing that I’ve been working on every night and day. Guys, who ever that read this please support me in your prayer.. =p

Today, 29th April 2009, I will attend the DATE, hope it will be my home, I’ve been give a lot of think here, so I decided to sacrifice my football game for this (in return I play with my office mate every Monday) everything got it price, all of this because I love Him, and I love the kids in Little Heaven, and ultimately I want to join Workers Gathering next year… ^^

Sorry guys, it’s going to be a long one, hope u’ll not get bored for this, I’m in my office right now, and all the bosses are gone, so I’m kinda free ^^ (not a good example)

Despite of all the problem I got, I’m also so exited this year, my friend just got married, and I’m his best man (it’s really an honor), and in next June, my best friend also got married, and personally I’m try to set my target here, to have ‘one’ euheueheuhehe….. Positively I’m mentally ready, but financially not yet, so really wish I can get a better way to produce money…in a good way.. ^^ for the future wife, also in progress, hopefully I can get her also this year, still in progress also now, but there’s still no signal yet….(pray hard for this also, ask and it will be given, I so love that phrase) ^^

We never be perfect, and God also never ask us to be one, He only ask to do our best, I love the sermon last week, say the race it’s not about who is the fastest to the finish line, we all just have to finish the race, it all God ask, of course you need to give ALL OF YOUR BEST to end the race. Keep up the pace friends, because of nowadays the game is getting tough, good simply not enough, u need to do more than that, more unexpected.
That’s the thing that I learn this whole month, it’s a simple message, but really hard to apply, I even can’t do it right now (at my wo*****ce) ^^

So that it from now, I need something to do, or else I got fired….. huhueeheueeh

Kept positive, never give up, have Faith!! , spread some love, and Go green…it’s getting hot in here ^^

"Weirrd.....Just Weird"

2009-02-05T22:19:00.000-08:00

My forth post:

Friday, 6th January 2009, 13:31 PM...

In my office, honestly there’s a lot of thing that I’ve done, but I’m feeling to write something. I call my 4th post “weird”. Why is it weird, because I have just passed a weird month of January 2009. There’s up and down in that month, but mostly down, even I can’t believe what I’ve bee through. Short stories right now I’m in February already. I still having a huge faith and expectation that this is going to be a ‘erick’ year ^^ despite the facts.

Early January I’ve made some resolution, and I’m wishing that this year that resolution works, not just target. In January for me, in relation with the resolution was just a warm up, I did not do anything, but somehow I get prepared. It’s already a week (maybe u can tell it’s JUST a week) in that straight 5 days, I manage to have a good or u can tell a better relationship with my God, and I have a better life, sleep every day at 10PM, 11 at most. Wake up at 5:30 with couple of snooze ^^ and jogging for 30 min.. yeeaaahhh!!!! (hope it will remain forever… ^^)

I’ve been working on project call “Knocking on Heaven Doors” I’ve been asking for the same thing over and over again, being persistence and wish that God granted what I want, of course it have to be synergize with His will and plan for me. I got this inspiration from Ps. Phil Pringle, He went to my church quite a long time ago, he teach us how to be persistence, and amazingly God give what he looking for.

In this moment I’m also learning being content, I’m learning how to be a better person, with more patient, passion, compassion, love (kasih), consistence, principle, wise, and every character that attach to Jesus, isn’t that what we living for, that is our purposes (at least it’s mine). It’s not easy, and there’s no one that can tell you it is easy, but I guess it’s achievable. I heard a good quote yesterday at church, and I thinking about it a lot, and it’s true as it “Everyone want to change the world, but there’s no one that willing to change themselves “ is it ironic, ?? I don’t want to be like them, I want to change into a better person ^^.

Out of the weird thing happen to me, I can point out a day that really the happiest day in January 2009, which on Saturday, January 24th 2009. I can’t give the details, cause it’s just still early, I don’t want to get to anxious , cause when it fall it hurts…. ^^ Just pray for me that God will give her to me.. I’m extremely happy that day, even I have to watch a 3 hour movie again… but it’s all worth it…. =P

"Music and Lyrics"

2009-01-23T10:45:00.000-08:00

" I'm not sleepy right now, so i decided to write something, i'm kinda enjoyed writing things now.. ^^. I have just watch Music and Lyrics performed by Hugh Grant and Drew Barymore, it's kind of old movie, I buyed the dvd long ago, but just manage to watch it rite now hehehe.... It's just a romantic movie, but i like the soundtrack it's called "way back into love" the movie was telling about how this character called Alex (Hugh G) make a song, He's assisted by this girl called Sophie (Drew B). And finally they fell in love… simple story, I haven’t seen romantic movie, I even can’t remember when the last time I watched it.

Hope it start and end well.... ^^

This very 2AM my heart was just in roller coaster, it makes me happy, worried and even sad; I don’t know why, maybe because what is going to happened today. Maybe it will called a first date ( I really hoped it happen today) It’s the second time I met in person, hope everything went well. I’m trying to tell myself a positive thing, that I can do it, Please God make today beautiful, PLEASE…..

I’m not going to say that I’m fall in love, it’s just a physical attraction between man and women, nothing more, so far… ^^ just want to get to know her more (this is the very exciting things when you want to build a relationship) well the impression so far is ok, even better, so really looking forward for today, I really want to make her friend of mine..

Today at 10AM I have to go to church, we’re going to make up the storage room and talk about our plan in the forthcoming weeks; it’ll be fun, and interesting. I really love to see Little Heaven grow even bigger and more mature, we can handle the kids, and be able to teach them the foundation of God…. The funny things I haven’t sleep yet…AAAAHHhhhhHHHhhhhh…….

This post will be short, I’m really want to write something about this very first months of 2009, the sermon from Ps. Jeff and Ps.Jose.. so stay tuned, I think I’m going to sleep (hopefully) I’m in the middle of between happy and sad…

About my problem in last post, not much progress, things seems very uncertain, even get weird… but the good things is I have less stress than yesterday, of course still hoping “the love one” have the same thing, “please open your heart, speak to me… if not, how can I really help you” the more important thing, keep God in your heart and mind, don’t let the wicked outsmart you, you were designed to win over him, you are more powerful than him…

Good Night Guys….

" Speechless "

2009-01-14T11:21:00.000-08:00

I'm listening to "Lead me to the cross" - by United right now... I really love this song.

Savior I come
Quiet my soul remember
Redemptions hill
Where Your blood was spilled
For my ransom
"Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost"

Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me, lead me to the cross

You were as I
Tempted and trialed
You are
Te word became flesh
Bore my sin and death
Now you're risen

To your heart
To your heart
Lead me to your heart
Lead me to your heart

Ok, I really don't know what happened to me over this week, It's been a heavy and tough week for me, I'm facing really a huge problem, problem that I even think will never happen, guess I'm underestimate things. Actually it's not directly my problem, but it hit the one I love, I wish that I really can write it all here, but it's to personal and I think it's unethical for it. (hopefully one day I can share it here)

I'm learning not to complained to God, It's also one of my resolution ( be a better Erick ). But being one of it it's surely difficult guys, you need to walk for an extra mile for it. I know that He knew this problem, and have His own planned for this, it's really bother me EVERY MINUTES OF MY LIVES, I became less focuss, and many more...... I have shared this to one of my friend, I guess it's a relieve when you can tell it to someone, it make you feel lighter, but this burden is almost overwhelmed me, I just can hold on God promises that " He never give us something that over than our power " I just have to have faith that this thing is going to make Erick stronger, every problem will only have 2 result, your capacity being extended or make you even worst, and I'm looking forward to get past this and my capacity being extended.

Everyday I'm asking more Power and strength to get trough this, cause there's less people that I can share with. As I mentioned before, it's actually not directly my problem, but He's someone special for me, and I Love Him very much, it's as if become mine. I really hope that He can learn something out of this, and never ever do the same stupid things again in the future.

"God I pray to you that you gave Him strength, I love Him God, and I just want really this just pass away, but I guess it's wise for Him to really learned something in this problem that He have, it's already consumed a great amount of energy, physical and mind. I know that He really depressed, but God once again I'm asking you to gave him power to overcome it, and teach Him to be more wise, and everything have it's own consequences, and He can get the message. I pray God, that He can find a solution for this, not just an easy bailout of this problem, but a solution that He felt responsible for this. It's just not Him only that stressed out, but He make everyone too. God I know that you love Him, and you never forsake Him, never Leave Him, I really hope that He will run to you. And I pray God, that there's no stupid things happen that will just make things worst. Thank you for everything God, You kept your hand in Him.. Only in Jesus name I pray.. Ameen"

I really hope that he see this....
and I really wish this will over ASAP, cause it's getting me more frustrated...

So, see you next time, I'm watching MU-Wigan, and MU leading 1-0,goal by Rooney ^^

" Welcome 2009 "

2009-01-01T22:16:00.000-08:00

Best Friend ever from Left to Right ( Me, Dyke, Danny and Yusly)

This is my first entry, It's been a roller coaster ride in 2008, there's a lot of things happened back there, there's Joy, sadness, everything's there..... and my 2008 resolution, none of it make it!! Now it's already 2009 again, and I have to set my new resolution... There are a lot of things that I want to do, maybe I can share a bit of it, so "welcome 2009"

I spent my New year eve at my friends house, we're playing fireworks, eating (is a must), and giving (the host, and I get one heheheh) presents. before it, I have my Lunch/Dinner (cause we have it like on 3PM) at Charcoal in Gedung Veteran 16th Floor ( Yus, I'm gonna charge for the advertising fee here.. ^^ ) It's a buffet lunch, and I thought it will be the last time I ate like "Crazy" it's really unbelievable, I ate till I cant breathe more..... we finish like around 5PM, it's really fun one, I met some of my several college friends. So now back to the resolution...

Here is the top ten list must done :

#1 : Live a healthy Life - I'm almost 80kg now, it's really scare me a lot, just fyi, 2 years back i'm only 60's kg, it almost raise one kg each month, so my target this year would be 65kg, how to achieve it, i'll try my best to wake up really early in the morning, en jogg for 30 minutes before works, apply from Monday to Friday, Saturday and Sunday 'off' huehuheheuehe.... at least i'm trying...

#2 : Find a DATE and Date - DATE, I'm already off from DATE for almost a year I guess (DATE is a cell group in JPCC) I really need it, to kept my spiritual life growing also, keep life in balance... for the action, I'll find a DATE around Green Garden or Green Ville ; Date I've been single for almost 2 years I guess, cant remember much of it... this is not really important, just want to make it the same with DATE.. hahahhaha.... (ga nyambung) the action, not really sure, met one girl, still get to know her, so we'll see... (God please, I really like this Girl, and She's really gorgeous) and other concern is, I'm 25 already ^^

#3 : Will be right back...... I have to go..... so see you..... ^^ (promise you will update you tonight)-Ok let's continue, Number 3 is, I want to kept writing on this blog, hopefully I'll update every week, or at least twice a month, sharing my life, which I believe this year is going to be an awesome year for me (I don't know, just felt that something amazing will happen to me this year) I think I'll be a different people, a better one, so You'll be kept in touch with it... enjoy it..

#4 : Will often keep in touch with my super best friends, I'll talk to Him every starts a day and when it ends.. . because I want Him to know how much I love Him... (this is the most challenging one)

#5 : I want to get to close to my Brother and Mom, I've been have this resolution for years, but never make it, I just wonder how it's not working, I can do it with my sister... so God help me through it.....

#6 : I want debt free this year,you know that CC is a evil card... (heuheuheuhe blame on the card) and start to have saving for future ( I know it's sound stupid, but,better than never I guess)

#7 : I want to have my on Digital Camera, I just figured out (where have I been.. ^^) I want to captured all of moments that I've been through, with friends and family, so it will last forever...

#8 : I want to renew again my devotion in serving God, at JPCC Kids, I always love it, Love the kids, and seeing them grow up become the next generation of this world, at the end of last year I felt a bit bored with it, and kind of doing it for routine, but after some serious thinking I'll stay, cause it's at least what I can do for God, so I'll find a new motivation an passionate for them again, and I'm having it again now....

How cute She is..... ^^

#9 : You know I felt that I have hundreds things to say, and write on this resolution, but some how I forgot it.. ^^ give me a time to think it again.......... . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .................................................................................................. Hmmmmmmmmm.... Im going to be an entrepreneur , still figuring out what kind of business what i'm into, but hope He will reveal something for me.....that's number 9..

#10 : Love God more and more and more, getting into the next level in my life, learn how to knock His heart and heaven, to be more sensitive hear His direction... I Love you God... more than anything, I'm sure u know it.....

So that is my 10 resolution for this year, I'm really hope all of it can be achieve, cause I belive something that you said it out loud, will motivate you more to do it, and will succeed, I dont want to be person who just talk much, but no action, maybe sometimes I'm kinda that kind of person, so this would be a test for me, how far I intend to change, Last thing from this first post I love you Sis, u've been a great inspiration for me, Love you too Bro, Mom and Dad, and thank God I get into this family, it's not perfect but, U make worth every second of it, so see you on the next post... ^^ have a great day...